cant live like this anymore, help

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I don't know what to do with myself anymore, im not the same person. In the evening I just get so down and I'm consumed with all of these suicidal thoughts and negative thoughts. It gets to the point where I'm planning what I would do. In the morning I always think that wasn't like me, it seems like a dream almost. I like to carry paracetamol in my bag just in case. I think I get anxious too cause I usually take 2 when I am to make me feel better. I've got sixth form tomorrow and I feel so nervous to go I don't know why. This is becoming a regular occurrence Evey Sunday evening to the point where I don't want to wake up in the morning or even get up. If I could I would spend everyday in bed in my PJs watching TV and never go out. Is this normal for a teen cause I feel like I'm losing it.

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    chocolate.eyes, do not worry. I am going through exactly the same thing and there is hope. Get some rest and I'll talk to you through your thread tomorrow. Hang in there. We can help each other out. I have some ideas. You may agree, disagree or suggest alternatives. Hang in there. Don't worry about sixth. Easier said than done I know.

    Sorry for the vague post. I spent ages typing something out and my browser refreshed but when I get back from work tomorrow I'll get all of the vital info posted tomorrow to try and help smile xx

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    chocolate.eye, if this helps, I am 60 yrs as of 3 weeks ago, I have Mulitple Personalities and when I went to church today, I had 3 seizures and several alters surfaced and it was intense. I get suicidal regularly, almost attempted it 2 weeks ago right after therapy, because I hate myself, I do not always know what is going on either. My pastor was very compassionate today at church, been going for 6 months and today I just couldn't hold it anymore and had the seizures and alters surfaced as I mentioned and I wanted to die because I could no longer stop it from happening. We all struggle with MANY issues and feelings that are complex. You are NOT alone at all. You live in the UK I live in the USA but miles apart you struggle along with all of us. YOU ARE VALUABLE, IMPORTANT AND SPECIAL, so get some rest tonight and see how you feel in the morning and let those on here know how you are tomorrow morning, I for one would like to know how you are OK? ok. YOU ARE LOVED as is EVERYONE on here. Have a Blessed Sunday and may Jesus's Angels watch over you and keep you safe always
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    A certain amount of anxiety as a teen is quite normal but as a mother of several children who have been through their teens, I'd have wanted to know about the way you were feeling.  Two out of 6 of mine did go through depression and anxiety.  I was able to get them help because once you start planning suicide, that is when you need to speak to someone.  If you can't face telling your parents, do you have somebody you can confide in who would go to your GP with you? If you can't say the words out loud, show them your post because it is very well written and explains just how you feel. I don't think anybody on a forum could properly assess whether what you are feeling is within the normal realms of normal or not and it would be irresponsible to dismiss your feelings as such when we don't really know you.  Please do talk to someone even if it is only the Samaritons, you don't have to do this on your own x

     

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    chocolate.eyes how are you doing this morning? It is difficult to understand what you wrote, do you still have a plan? sometimes when I have been in the eye of the storm with suicidal thoughts, I call my therapist and he asks me to what degree I am suicidal and IF I cannot get in to see him, he will talk to me about it, ask me questions and my response tells him how bad I am and he will then make an assessment over the phone. Some times when a person has a plan talking to someone gives them information and they either ask for a suicide pack like a promise NOT to do anything or they help to divert my struggle with it or plan with it and they get me through and then decide to make an appointment. Even therapists can miss it because sometimes patients are not honest. I NEVER make light of suicide with anyone, that is why I am asking how you are doing this morning. I HOPE I hear from you
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    I'm probably around a similar age group, well not quite I'm 20+ BUT, nonetheless answering your question firstly you are sane. You are just going through a bit of a tough phase.

    Here are a few pointers that are helping me:

    1./ Eat healthily - if you eat junk generally speaking, you'll feel like it. I've just eaten a banana and it's actually made me feel quite good..

    2./ Distract yourself - set goals - have a varied lifestyle. You don't have to run a marathpn like I used to which I am hoping to hop back into again but even if it is something little like going for a week.

    3./ Watch your health - Yeah binging, sleeping during the day, smoking anything like that I wouldn't recommend. Only one of those things I haven't tried... but yeah if you're thinking about sleeping, becoming anxious etc. you're not occupied enough or if you are, you need to move onto something else. Perhaps you're spending too long on one thing?

    4./ Self harm isn't the answer. Trust me it isn't worth it. I've been there done it. Only lightly but that made me feel ten times worse. Apart from the fact it hurt like hell afterwards, I looked like a thug (just saying).

    5./ Broaden your interests and your eating habits. Nobody says you have to read if you don't like reading or you have to eat fish if you don't like it like me but if you try new things, your life will become more interesting.

    6./ Keep things balanced and in proportion - that means setting realistic goals partly but having a healthy mix of things in your life and I'm speaking in general terms putting food and activities to one side. If you get tired, you're bored. Find something else to do. 

    7./ Smile a little. Releases endorphins. If you can't watch something like this, this will make you laugh lol _________ depends on your sense of humour but anyway fails are generally funny to watch as they can make you hysterical in a positive way which is what we are aiming for smile

    8./ Keep talking. You've done the right thing posting here which means you're open to advice. Your next step is to speak to a doctor. Ask about CBT. The first three weeks will seem awesome. After that you may feel a bit worse for wear than usual as the point of CBT is that it touches on issues in hand, looking to move forward.

    Anyway, I hope this gives you some insight. Curing depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety isn't a weeks job. It varies. Everyones different. Don't compare yourself with anyone including myself. These are just suggestions and if you can think of something else, go for it smile

    Good luck. And let us know how you get on. If you need any more advice, you're welcome to send me a message through the site's messaging service. My issues range from stress problems, angry phases, all the way the way to what you are facing right now. I'm hear to listen and I always will.

    Take it easy xx

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      Add in a bit of excercise too - it's a great way of making yourself feel better once you've done it.  If you're a bit of a couch potato like me, you're too busy trying to catch your breath to worry about anything 😉
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    Hey guys, thanks for the support and advice.

    I'm feeling a bit better thanks, today wasn't as bad as I thought it was gonna be, but I just find myself going into my own world with friends sometimes and thinking about my life , comparing myself to others weight wise and intellectually. I feel OK but I might feel the same as I did last night. I know I should stop watching weight loss programmes cause I end up feeling worse but I did and bow I'm looking at gyms wishing that I started from the 1st January because I'm gonna be so fat for my birthday. So this has probably triggered me and I might pay for this tonight

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      chocolate.eyes, I know you are still struggling and we all go through body image problems, I am 60 and I have body image issues as well. I have scoliosis so I am deformed in my lower body and it's tough, I also have it in my neck and it throws my head off balance so it leans towards one side of my neck, not a lot but noticeable. See how you do tomorrow, hopefully each day will be a bit sunnier and easier, if not you always have the option of talking to someone and support here
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    What do you like doing or what would you like to do? It can be anything. Try have a think about it. Like me, as I am a OCD and anxiety sufferer you may be overthinking it which puts more stress on the mind. Instead you need to occupy it which will distract it positively rather than negatively. As I said, CBT is always a good option as the aim of it as opposed to talking therapy is to discover where everything triggers and how.

    Have a think about little things you may want to do. It could be learning to draw, sing, dance etc. smile

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