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i haven't been on here in like 4 months. I can't say much has changed other than trying multiple different medications to ease my pain. However some things have gotten better; I have joined weight watchers (giggle) and have lost 2.5 stone so far (since december) so i'm glad that i'm finally getting that sorted!
After the car accident over a year ago!! (doesnt feel like that long ago as im still suffering, and have been told numerous times i will forever suffer with pain arthritis etc) i have chronic pain in my ankle/foot/knee/hip which were all hit in the car accident.
I have such limited mobility and it really gets me down. I'm looking at 'better/bigger' mobility scooters to help me get out and about more independently. I'm 23!! This should be the time I thrive and go out and party and have friends etc. But no. I know in some ways I don't help myself as I refuse to use the scooter I have, and i dont have a social life at all. But I am trying. It's so hard to deal with the constant pain and the daily reminders (using a stick/seeing the scars) etc.
Before the accident i was going out to gigs on my own (happily) and making friends (trying) and losing weight etc but this has set me back. Today it all just seemed to hit me that this is it. I had a real good cry and felt sorry for myself!
BUT ON A HAPPIER NOTE:
I am currently losing weight i was 24 stone!!! I'm not 21 stone 6 so i'm getting there slowly but surely. I am also trying to help myself by talking on this forum to you!! Who probably understand and relate to what i'm moaning about!?
I feel that people in my family really don't understand the day to day bulls*** that we have to deal with. PAIN, MOBILITY ISSUES, THE LOOKS THE STARES (every time you go out with a walking stick or in a chair or mobility scooter, like im not embarrassed enough!) SCARS, and ultimately being faced with the REALITY that this is my life. Im 23 i don't go out on my own because (at the moment at least) im so unbalanced and unstable im also on pain medication which makes me sleep alot so i miss half of the normal human day.
Sometimes it all just seems so sad.
Anyway I am trying to get my life sorted;
- some form of transport aka mobility scooter/moped/bike
- trying to keep afloat :P
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