Chronic fissure with scar tissue , suicidal thoughts coming

Thanks Kathy_64894 for the efforts ,i ve been suffering from this unknown issue .,so it started like this ,i was severely constipated ,,i strained multiple times that night ,since i wasn't constipated before in my lyf before ,i didn't know abt the issue ,so i made the mistake of straining that night,, i couldn't poop that night,i felt severe spasm pain ,and burning pain,next day i went to gp,he gave me stool softeners and lactulose,i pooped but with blade lyk pain although no blood ,i used a cream but still i had severe itching in night as if there were glasses in my anus,but i felt that i might be in healing phase ,so this continued for 1 month ,although i wasn't completely ok ,but it seemed that i was going to be ok real soon ,then i discontinued the meds ,around 3 months later ,i felt as if i have to strain again ,so i immediately took the meds , it was ok ,2 days after ,i had a strong urge at night ,i pooped and there were streaks of blood all over the stool ,i mean stool wasn't large ,but it was huge in content wise,so i was horrified ,the next day i went to crs who told me that i had fissure ,he gave me menthol based gel and antibiotics and lactulose again ,it was easier to poop ,i felt little discomfort,but at night stool in anus always felt like pointed needles,then started the period of ripping and healing ,some days i would feel good ,some days were terrible,we went to a new crs ,hoping he would tell us the exact situation,he told us that small fissure was there , suggested nifepedine oint ,after 20 days ,he said i was healed , although i still felt as if i had multiple fissure ,so i went to another crs ,he told me i had very small hemorrhoids ,he gave me sulfate based cream which relieved itching ,but didn't quite solve the bowel problem ,i felt as if someone had cut my anus , at multiple places ,i had this incomplete defecation problem although this entire time though ,i can bear all this pain , but whenever i eat more ,i get backed up heavily ,my back feels huge pressure after every bowel movement , everytime i have incomplete defecation, i can only have 1 chapati with curd and pulses and veggies in morning ,and very less rice in evening ,i have lost around 24 kgs since this unknown issue , i don't eat any junks ,and have 12 to 15 glasses of water every day ,since this disease i have changed multiple crs ,last i went for proctosigmoidoscopy ,reports were normal ,they diagnosed that i have nothing , tell me guys what i have ,😢😢 ,my symptoms -during pooping somedays i feel as if my anus is cut ( 2 of 7 dayz),the rest days i feel slight burning and irritated down there,( for 25 to 45 mins),i have to stretch my anus sometimes to poop and bear the pain if any during pooping,,and of course if incomplete defecation i feel glass shards poking me down there....

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Fissures are the worst pain ive ever been through, and ive been through a lot. Do you have a proctologist you can see? My original doctor was quick to dismiss my pain as hemorrhoids and sent me on my way with only fiber supplements. I wish i could help in some other way. Sending you strength.

thanks a lot , i have an appointment next month with a colorectal surgeon , let's see what happens ,hoping for something good to happen🤞🤞

Just remember that surgeons do surgery which is the last resource. find out first what other options are.

keep the fiber diet routine, lots of water, exercise, sitz baths.

question is till when we do it ,with fissure ,one day u ll feel best.,next day u ll feel worst,till when we would bear it

patience my friend. It takes time but eventually it heals and after that happens, you must keep a routine to keep stools soft.

well mitushi ,your words are inspiring, it's just concentrating on other important aspects of life has been difficult for me, well these kinda diseases just reduce the quality of your life too ,so surgery seems the ideal way out ,but in my case none of the doctors have suggested surgery ,in fact none of them are able to diagnose the reason for pain and burning ,my proctosigmoidoscopy report are normal ,they report no fissures , no polyps,no internal hemorrhoids ,and they just said that my sphincter doesn't relax when it has to , and prescribed a stool softener and anti depressant .,well i just don't understand why i have pain and burning after bms if i have nothing ,well i m stressed out much more due to the fact that none of the docs are able to find the reason for pain ,sorry for such a long reply ,just stressed out , thanx a lot for replying to my post🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

why antidepressants? i would try other natural relaxing methods first.

ARE YOU taking SITZ BATHS AFTER BM . that is supposed to sooth and relax. if not time for sitting in the tub, you can get a seat that goes on the toilet. you can buy it at any CVS, Walgreens, etc... if in the US. Or AMAZON.

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yeah ,sitz bath has helped me a lot ,i do it almost everyday, ,just thinking that conservative treatments can treat chronic fissure , i mean the research i ve done on internet seems to be against this idea??,lemme know how you healed it plssss

You can try fiber supplement like Equate Daily Fiber, eat soft food not spicy and hard. Three times a day after meal. I hope it help you. Take care yourself.