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Today like every day is just exsisting. Tired of feeling ill all the time. tired of the pain or the extreme fatigue. the not being able to stay awake or shower when need to. the ongoing payback for daring to have one day of normality to then pay for it over 2 weeks.

the constent feeling of malaise, not being able to eat without issues to my bowel, frequent infections, headaches, pain in my body, not being able to stay awake to function. the isolation as body clock screwed not being able to plan. the feeling of being worthless, burden nobody cares ,listens. Gps not intrested. no support.

not able to leave bed, leave house .

everyday is just a fight. Tired of it.

am 48 but might as well be 98 .

nobody understands, nobody believes the intensity and complexity of my illness what's the point.

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    hi cherryl, you're right pain hurts, it takes the real you away. i am 48 and feel the same some days. who told you you'd be better off not here, the same person who told me? a family member was mine and still is! have you decided how not to be here? have you told anyone? have you planned anything? i can"t stop you doing what you want with your life. i will see if you speak on here again, if you do you want to get away from this situation. if you don"t you either aren't here or you have found someone else to speak to. i hope you feel able to come back.....

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    hi, im sorry for what your going through! im currently sick and i know the feeling it sucks!! and sometimes i literally want to rip my hair out lol but it will get better trust me!! if you need to talk feel

    free to message me!!

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    Hello can you be depressed with the name of Cherry lips !!!!!! It shows that you are still in there

    trying to get out .

    I understand perfectly where you are coming from .I do spend days in bed ,feeling "What's the point "

    It really is a damned hard decision to actually get out of bed ,when there is nowhere to go and ,no reason for going

    Driving is my life saver ,and I just imagine where to go , with my best friend ,,,,MY CAR ,

    Most of your aches and pains are in your head ,as they are in mine ,but they all clear off ,as soon as I leave the house,

    AND ,, Wine Gums ,also help ,,big time ,, You need I do ,,I make people talk ,it's a really good therapy ,as most

    people will respond . So ,get some slap on those Cherry Lips ,and talk me .for starters xx


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    The last part of your post “nobody understands, nobody believes” is the worst part; whether it’s family or friends, no one understands the extent of the pain, both physical and emotional. The thought of the future can be motivating or even more depressing. And that’s the thin line one has to cross. You are now 48, what happens when you get to 58. Would you like the next ten years to be like what it is today? If not, start taking baby steps to wellness. There is help out there… seek it. There is no shame, no harm in seeking help. Understand that it will take time, understand it’s not an easy road, but believe that you will get better. All the best!

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