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Hi I'm a 48 year old man at the end of my tether & absolutely desperate for help. Hoping someone can advise? Medical history is very long so for ease of reading (& typing) I've bullet-pointed my story:-
~1997 Heartburn after certain foods.
~2001/2 severe heartburn
~2004/5 tested & diagnosed with H.Pylori. Prescribed antibiotics. Presumed clear ??
Heartburn persists. Prescribed Omeprazole, then Esomeprazole. Symptoms kept in check
2009 injury while lifting heavy object - can't poo for nearly a week, abdominal cramps. Feel like I've seriously injured my back. Prescribed laxatives which cause considerable pain but no relief. Resort to self-administered large dose of painkillers (800mg ibuprofen) nearly lose continence while out on a shopping trip! Feel like I've torn something below my sternum. . terrible pain like I've had a punch to the gut - this comes & goes for several weeks. Shearing pain from lower sternum through into back.
2009 - 2015: consult numerous doctors (my surgery is a training practice) describing my symptoms dozens of times to dozens of doctors who (in no particular order because I've lost track) order the following tests:-
2 endoscopies (one opted without GA!) 3cm hiatus hernia visible + inflammation down into duodenum.
3 ultrasound scans looking for gall stones/liver or kidney problem/etc. All clear.
3 MRI scans - abdominal/lumbar/ lower thoracic/ cervical. Some herniated discs but no nerve compression.
Blood tests (not sure what for) All clear.
Dental xrays & examinations due to serious questions over practices of my dentist back in the mid 1980s. Clear.
Chest XRay. Clear.
I'm literally at the end of the rope now. I feel so desperately ill that nothing alleviates the permanent abdominal cramping/difficult to control & severe heartburn + tearing sensation across my shoulders & down through my sternum. The only way to convey how this feels is to compare it to a moderate toothache from my neck down to my upper abdomen right through my core. A toothache that whilst it might be tolerable in the short-term, I've endured for years. The dripping tap is now water torture.
There is no normality to life, no answers & no end in sight. I've told two doctors that I want to die because I'm so miserable but they can't seem to join the dots & see that my desperation & depression is down to pain & frustration, not the other way round. Prescribed Amitryptaline low dose. No effect.
I've always been physically pretty tough & psychologically stoic but I've all but lost this fight. The only only way out of this is the hope that I find a doctor with a new perspective. And a magic wand. That doesn't seem likely so I've made definite plans to take my own life. I've said as much to at least two doctors & they didn't seem overly concerned. I record all of my consultations now partly because I need my wife to hear what is said, (just in case I forgot what was said) & partly because I have zero trust. Maybe the autopsy & ensuing lawsuit will reveal the problem? ?
I simply cannot equate the severity of my symptoms with test results. Someone has missed something, perhaps as many as 30 or more times. Deliberately? I'm really, seriously starting to wonder. Will they open me up & find me riddled with cancer? A broken back? Ruptured splean? I would be happy with ANY diagnosis right now, at least I would have some starting point to work from.
Sorry for ranting.
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