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Hi guys, so im completely new to this page, i've read over a few things this is kind of a long post because i wanna explain my story too.
i'm 26 years old, and in august last year, at a music festival i had a panic attack which at the time i had no idea what it was, since i was 17, i had issues with my heart which test after test after test, all came back i was healthy. So it looked like my anxiety was kinda hidden for many years, after the panic attack life was okay for a couple of weeks, and then i had another panic attack whilst at work, went to the hospital all okay, same story as many, went to hospital numerous times, had many tests all came back no problem. Now, when i eventually went to the doctors i was told it was anxiety and to try propanolol 10mg and diazepam 2mg as and when needed, the combination was okay until 1 day, i had a pure fear that i was going to hurt someone or someone else, now i'm as soft as a brush so i didn't want to do either, after that episode i paid to see a therapist and found the stem of my problems. This worked for about a week and i was okay, i went to my girlfriends, all was okay, again, intense fear of harming someone or myself. and the over riding anxiety which comes with it, i decided enough was enough and went back to the doctors, they prescribed me 50mg of sertraline, low and behold everything was fine but still the minor issues with anxiety daily so was upped to 100mg, after 8 days i was a complete mess and me and my doctor decided to change to 20mg of citalopram, from the first tablet i felt much much better, around the 5 week mark i crashed ever so slightly with anxiety but after that life was great, went back to work, getting my life back on track, still getting panic attack and intrusive thoughts but were much better to deal with. around 3 months i was in a real bad way, severely down and i couldn't understand why, went back to docs, upped to 30mg for around 4 weeks i didnt really feel any benefit from upping at all. and then i could feel slight changes, now, im on week 7 after upping and i feel terrible, the horrible intrusive thoughts, the terrifying anxiety. Has anybody else been in the same scenario? this anxiety has changed me completely, i was the life and soul of the party up to the day of the panic attack and ever since ive just been in a state of panic that these thoughts and my anxiety is gonna send me insane! Just to add, i'm in no danger, i'm not gonna act on my thoughts, but they are just there and it frightens me so so much!
Thanks in advance you lovely people, and i'm so sorry for the long message!
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