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I'm 21 years old and have suffered really bad anxiety for the past year, especially when I smoked cannabis. It would bring on panic attacks instantly.
I stopped smoking last year due to this however the symptoms have only worsened. I split up with my partner a few months ago and have been feeling really depressed as well as anxious. I quit my job, never see any of my friends and barely leave the house anymore.
A couple days ago I musterd up the courage to see a few friends for a drink, I blacked out all night and I remember nothing except I tried to kill myself (later that night, not in front of them, so they don't know of my situation).
My mum did find out so she knows what I'm going through and phoned the Dr for me, and informed him of my condition. He wanted to see me in person so I went up (feeling like I wanted to run out of the room) and was prescribed 10mg Cit.
I'm planning on starting this 1x per day plan tomorrow but I am absolutely terrified of my condition getting worse. I've read it gets worse for about 4 weeks then gets better, however I don't think I'll be able to cope with the worse stage. I'm worried I get so scared in a panic attack that I do something stupid.
Would anybody reccomend taking something to counteract the panic attacks? Such as taking diazepam as well as the Citalopram? As I said I have no job to go to or anything like that so i don't care if I'm a braindead zombie for 4 weeks, I just am so fed up being scared, and being scared of the fear. The only time of the day I can relax is about midnight in bed, as I know I won't be disturbed.
Sorry for the huge post, I wanted to make sure I covered all the important topics in one go, if I think of anything else relevent i'll let whoever replies know.
I would appreciate any and all expierences/opinions, as I will be checking this thread very reguarly every day as I go through my treatment. It's nice to know I'm not alone, even though I have never felt more alone.
Thanks for reading.
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