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I've been taking Citalopram since November. I started off on 20mg, but was soon put on 40mg. I was reluctant to go back on medication after having a bad experience with Venlafaxine a few years ago whereby I felt like a Zombie for 3 years! After another 'crash' in November my doctor persuaded me to try them, assuring me that if I felt bad or had no improvement we would try something else.
Basically, I don't feel any better whatsoever! I still have the emotional highs and lows. The only difference I notice is that when the lows come I'm unable to cry and so am left still feeling the unbearable emptiness but with no release which is horrible.
I've had another review with my doctor this week and am stunned at the attitude he has taken with me. He basically told me that my depression and anxiety has been going on a long time now and that everybody has problems but they just deal with it and get on with their lives, and that I need to do the same!!!! He also insists that I should keep taking Citalopram even though it's doing nothing for me, and in a way is actually making me feel worse when I hit the lows. Needless to say I stopped taking the Citalopram that day, I would rather feel the pain of the lows than be tormented by the emptiness that Citalopram fills me with. I'm starting to feel really dizzy now.
I just don't know where to go to get the help I need. I'm devestated by the ignorance and negligance with which my doctor treated me, and came out of there in tears and have slept virtually all weekend, overwhelmed by no end in sight.
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