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So here it goes, I'm a young (ish) guy (just turned 30) who has only realised recently how bad anixety/ depression can be.
3 years ago I became unwell whilst over in the states working, where whilst being in a car with work colleagues I started having full body cramps. This turned my whole body rock hard and was so painful, followed by ( what I know now) was a pretty major panicking attack! I didn't know at the time that I was badly dehydrated and actually needed emergancy treatment.
Without thinking about it I came home as normal to my girlfriend and went on with life but soon found every time I got in my car on my own I became very anxious.
This went on and on for days until I got to the point where I stated having panick attacks, obviously at the time thinking I had something seriously wrong with me and I was dying of some horrible undiagnosed illness.
After becoming increasingly isolated and less able to leave the house without the terrible feeling of anxiety I went to the doctors, who, with all the criticism was aboulsuty amazing and understanding prescribed me with 20mg of citalopram and some sleeping tablets for the first few days for good measures.
Well I have to admit the first 3 days were a nightmare, no sleep, anxiety at 100% and all hope quickly fading! BUT it soon changed. Slowly life was not so hard and had meaning and I get better. I could drive after a few weeks and started working away again doing long haul flights and weekends away from support and help abroad. Even pitying people who said they were depressed and had anxiety like it had never happened to me!
Well after 2 years with no issues it all came back with a real kick. My fiancee of 5 years left me and turned out to be cheating on me for 6 months. This has destroyed me and brought back the anxiety and depression multiplied by 100. Started back on 20mg for 8 weeks with no change, so I've just got onto 40mg. Could anyone who is on 40mg tell me if it's worth it? I'm desperate for some advice and help, does this get better?
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