Codeine Monster
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I've been using 25 x 12.8mg tabs a day for 14 years. It began with migraines, debilitating migraines which have put me in hospital on many occasions. In Feb this year I got sick of lying awake at night stressing over the damage "Panafen plus" is doing to my liver! I've dealt with bilateral mastectomy and breast reconstruction and codeine has been my rock. The goal for me is to NOT have gone through all that just to kill myself with drug addiction. I saw what losing my sister to cancer did to my family and I DO NOT want the humiliation of joining her in death because of my own weaknesses in dealing with what has happened.
I am now 9 months down the track and reduced my intake to 9 x tabs a day. Last week I went to 7 tabs but restless legs were driving me nuts! I am going back to 8 tomorrow and plan dropping one tab a week.
The amount of willpower it takes to stick to a lesser amount each day is unbelievable to say the least. Cold turkey was pretty much impossible for me because the Withdrawl is for me, just to damn painful. Which is rediculous because anyone who has woken up from bilateral mastectomy will know the pain is excruciating!!!!
Anyway, I know my addiction may seem silly or small in comparison to some of the posts I've read, but I believe that no matter what the onset for addiction is or was for each of us, we all need to share our storey and help each other remain strong when the Withdrawl gets us down into the depths of despair. xxx
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rich_001 Shakey1204
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Hi Shakey,
what you have endured is extremely tough and I agree that the codeine based medication that you are on needs to be addressed. If it has been your rock, why not get a prescription for codeine phosphate only - that way, at least you take the fear out of what damage you may be doing. I'm sure that with a person with your medical history, that route would be more than acceptable to any physician.
All the best,
Rich
Shakey1204 rich_001
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Hi Rich,
I never thought of that, I didn't even know you could get codeine without other Meds in the mix. You're right that the ibuprofen is my concern, I've got a new doc and she's aware of what I'm doing. She gave me a script for 'Lyrica' to limit the Withdrawl. I haven't had one yet but I am now down to 8 tabs of Panafen a day. I'm due to see her again next week and I'll ask about a codeine script.
Thankyou Rich, a codeine only tab will indeed reduce a good deal of my concerns. I'm feeling like I might just get there and finally kick this damn addiction once and for all.
Shake
didi_79034 Shakey1204
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I think ibuprofen is the problem here in all honesty. I can take panadeine extra and go without for days/weeks with no problem but N+ left me with restless legs,stomach cramps,sweating and shaking etc.
I contracted whooping cough last year and the doctor put me on codeine elixir to supress my constant coughing. It also was easy enough to come off.
Shakey1204 didi_79034
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Hi didi,
Thankyou so much for your reply. I've checked out Lyrica on line today and I agree that the side effects are of great concern. I feel like I've really got my head in the right place to kick it this time. 8 tabs is the lowest dose I've taken in over a decade. I'd hate to kick Panafen+ only to get addicted to Lyrica.
Docs write us scripts without batting an eye! We are so lucky we can look this stuff up now and really understand what we're getting ourselves into. Again, THANKYOU. It's a great comfort to know I'm not in this battle alone.
The difference in my own personal determination has gone up exponentially in just 2 days of having joined and read the posts in this forum.
Warmest regards, Shakey
didi_79034 Shakey1204
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No worries! They do just write scripts probably get kickbacks for it as well while they play with other peoples lives. 8 a day is nearly the normal prescribed dose so you are very close to goal! Just decrease by 1 a day and you will there before you know it
It will be liberating to have your life back,not worrying about when you can get your next dose and how far you have to travel for it as well. I was sometimes travelling 200km round trip so I now have more time up my sleeve!
Shakey1204 didi_79034
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Yep, I've used a few litres of gas driving around to different pharmacies too! I'm so excited when I think about only needing 2 x 30 tab packs to get me through a whole week and still have some left!
Its almost like I'm now addicted to quitting, I keep doing the math on tabs reduced x days and love that each week it's less and less. It's been such a long rocky road. Can't believe I'm nearly at the recommend dose, thank you for pointing that out.
Can I ask, are you off codeine now? You seem like you've made it.
hugs, Shakey.
didi_79034 Shakey1204
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Keep going your body will thank you!
didi_79034 Shakey1204
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Shakey1204 didi_79034
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I'm in Canberra ACT, I did switch to panadeine for a few days about a yr ago but I got really, really sick. Looking back now, I realise I was probably in Withdrawl from N+!
Honestly.... I have sooo many problems from accidents I've got every reason to take Meds. I started using OTC because I didn't want to destroy my system with the scripts I was being given!!!
My docs have always said I have a high pain threshold but I really don't think I do. Bad weather here today so my back, knees and neck feel like I've got acid in them. Had my 3 tab dose now so will have to wait till lunch for the next 2 tabs.
Argh! Today already sucks. I gotta run for now but I will check back in later. Your right about the new link up system the chemists have, it's a damn good incentive to get the monster under control.
Shakey1204 didi_79034
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Also, here in the ACT the real time link started coming in around April. Any continuous purchases require a letter or script from a GP. I knew it was coming and knew that at 25 tabs a day there was no way I could cope cold turkey. So tapering was the option I went for.
Im looking into and have been trying organic options for pain management instead. Migraines are the hardest to beat tho! When your head is pounding so hard your legs cave beneath you and then the vomiting starts. You wonder how your head hasn't already exploded and would do anything, ANYTHING to make it stop.
I worry that those times I will fail and take whatever I can get my hands on. It's hard to rationalise that in those moments I will no longer be a slave to the monster but a real person dealing with a real medical requirement.
BS I know...
didi_79034 Shakey1204
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If you can be bothered going to a GP and getting a N+ prescription you may as well get something more worthwhile IMHO.
I self medicated for years because I didnt have the timw to sit in a doctors office to get other useless medications that they prescribed to me over the years.
Shakey1204 didi_79034
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No way am I gonna get a script for N+, especially now that I'm so, so close. I'm keen to keep trying out organic/herbal and dietary combinations along with yoga and YES DEFINITELY massage. I've been a huge fan of massage for over 2 decades.
I'm also going to look at curcurim. Anything is better than what I've been doing. I have found yoga to be very useful, it's amazing how good a few simple stretches can make you feel.
Naturally, I'm only doing beginner stretches but they're still really good. On a happy note, I'm still going strong on 8 tabs a day with the intention of going to 7 on Wed (only 2 days away). I know I will be fine.
didi_79034 Shakey1204
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Shakey1204
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Rich, I just realised I never told you I spoke to my doc about straight codeine but she enforced the Lyrica which after much study I've decided not to take. Just keeping up the good fight until that magic day when zero is the number of tabs.
shake