I'm 23 and am coming to terms with possible depression...
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I have been feeling progressively more and more down over the past few months. As I do with all bad experiences or moments in my life, I don't deal with them but brush them aside instead and block them out. However, this time I can't... because it is not one thing that is wrong exactly... it's reems and reems of tiny things. After recently breaking down under the unfluence of alcohol I started to realise how deep these emotions may be and that I find it difficult to get anyone to understand me (even my Mother and partner). This has lead me to anger and driving people away.
I know I need to seek medical help/therapy but I'm only just breaking the surface. I feel so isolated, angry, lost, alone, self-blaming, non-progressive, numb and constantly on the verge of tears... it has been really hard to write even this glipse into my emotions. I don't know what to do - I don't feel ready to talk to anyone yet. Should I read self-help books?
Any responses are hugely appreciated.
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lee34449 feelinglost23
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barbara03922 feelinglost23
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Maybe your mum and partner are too close to you and you would find it easier to talk about what's going on inside you with someone you don.t know. Go to your GP and find a doctor you can talk to, as soon as you can or look for a cousellor.
Digsby feelinglost23
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A lot of love & compassion going out to you from those of us reading your post. The mind can be a real battlefield when thoughts and feelings invade that we don't recognise or want to entertain. But they are just thoughts and however powerful and overwhelming they may seem, they are not real. Recognising this is the first small step and it may need time to become a habit. Also, you are not to blame for the way you feel: just like a broken bone or an infection, it is something that is happening TO you and so it is something that you can recover from. Hold on to that hope....always! If you have a curious mind, reading books and websites can be of help but we are all different so there is no cure-all. Take what you read, digest it, sift what is useful for you (you may even find it useful to write the key points down in a diary to re-read at a later date when the negative thoughts start to overwhelm you). Don't rush your recovery, however frustrating the waiting to feel better becomes. Take one day at a time (some of us just take one hour at a time). Focus on anything positive in your life - however small - which can counteract the negative stuff. Please let us know how you are getting on.
All the best,
Digsby
fee25 feelinglost23
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I found that writing out what was going on in my head helped me to get things straight - you don't have to share it, I wrote mine on a word doc and just deleted it after! Also, for me research helped - researching ways to approach the situation makes you more aware of what you can do and makes the whole process seem less scary, also look into some simple relaxation techniques to help control your nerves.
I think a lot of people put off going to see their GP as much as possible, I sometimes felt it was cruel forcing myself to go because entering a doctors office brings on so much anxiety but, it will help in the long run.
You have posted on here, which is your first step and a brilliant start! If you feel as though you will soon be ready to see your GP take a look at my first discussion by clicking on my username, everybody who commented gave brilliant advice as to how to go about it!
Hope this helps, good luck!
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