Drowning more
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Erm I'm very low at the moment. I've had depression for two years and it's destroyed my life
I'm starting to fear leaving the house and I really would love to end my life but I don't have the strength
I was tipped over the edge I had met someone 4 months ago stupidly I thought maybe this is my chance for normality I felt like myself around him and he seemed to care
He broke up with me before Christmas (we had things planned with his family) it went from him having commitment issues then intimacy issues then to his feelings changed
A lot of things in my life just seem to get pulled away from me and I just just feel cursed
It hurts me he will find someone else I just feel it would have been nice just
to be a bit happier for a bit longer
I feel just so unlucky so times my worse nightmares come true
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Jenpro30 kelly45731
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Don't get discouraged sweetie it's gonnA be ok I ha e been deepresssed for 2 years and it's hard try talking to a counselor if it helps . Please do something there are people who care and I care
kelly45731 Jenpro30
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Jenpro30 kelly45731
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Don't be just give things time it will come around
kelly45731 Jenpro30
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I'm trying not to be I just don't understand why his feelings just went he cried and then said it a horrible decision and then said his feelings just changed
Jenpro30 kelly45731
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Jenpro30
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Sometimes peoples feelings change did between my ex husband and me . Don't get me wrong sometimes people who have been together for a long time
kelly45731 Jenpro30
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kelly45731
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One min he's inviting me out with his family the other he's dumping I just feel they always win
Jenpro30 kelly45731
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Maybe he's just not ready for a relationship maybe it's not his family . Could be he's not ready
Jenpro30 kelly45731
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But for him to be like that in 4 months I'm sorry 😐 maybe he will come around
kelly45731 Jenpro30
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He said he had doubts but continued to invite me round then after all this dumping wishes me a happy Christmas and hopes I'm having a great day obviously out of pity
Jenpro30 kelly45731
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That was very selfish for him to do and if he comes around again don't give into him easy as like right away. Take your time so you don't get hurt again . I understand having doubts but what he did to you wasn't very nice .
kelly45731 Jenpro30
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borderriever kelly45731
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You are not alone, we all go through the same problems when we start dating, sometime the relationships go pearshaped and we end up in one big heap as we try and get through the loss.
Life is full of loss and no matter how we try and avoid it we end up suffering and eventually making changes.
What you need to understand the person who walked out of your life was not the person for you. Your future Mate is still out there awaiting the right person like you, your last relationship was not working and to be honest it is better that you find out now before a Marriage you find that person was wrong for you and you are best to understand that now instead of ten years later ??. You now need to dust yourself of come to terms with that disappointment and move on.
Good Luck
BOB
kelly45731 borderriever
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I find it hard to cope with anything bob I'm a mess
borderriever kelly45731
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BOB