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I don't know how much more I can take...

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Introvert1190
Introvert1190

I need to vent, and maybe get some support..

So I'm 25 and a single mom of two boys, work full time. I suffer from Bipolar 1, anxiety, and ptsd. I stopped taking my meds years ago, and it's really catching up to me.. My low swings are getting really bad and I legitimately feel scared of myself, I'm always thinking "What if I go through with it?" "What if I act out these thoughts?" And I am at the point where I am terrified that I will follow through with my thoughts in a low swing.. My boys are my LIFE.. I live for them, breathe for them, get out of bed everyday to work a job to provide for them, and they are the only reasons I am alive today! I'm so tired of waging war with myself every single day.. I'm tired of fighting.. I just want my boys to be happy and healthy even if it's not with me.. God I don't know how much more I can take ..

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  • michelle02793
    michelle02793 Introvert1190

    Posted

    Get back on your meds. Go back to regular session with your gp, psychiatrist . And over time things will seem normal again. Best wishes xxx
  • sunflower88
    sunflower88 Introvert1190

    Posted

    I'm in a similar situation, i've been off my pills for 2 years, i have one child that i also strive for everyday. I've been finding myself being pulled into what u call low swings and been feeling maybe i would try going back on pills. but i've had such bad side effects from what i was previously on. it's so hard to know what to do.  

  • mauiblue
    mauiblue Introvert1190

    Posted

    If you are still on Patient, I am hopin you are better. I feel for you.

    Although i dond have bipolar..who knows maybe i do..  rolleyes

    I know what its like to live for your boys.

    I completely feel the same. I do everything for them, and if it werent for them, i have no idea what would happen.

    Do you know what happened and why you discontinued the medication last year?

    I know what you mean when you say your tired of fighing...its really exhausting...

    If this reaches you ..please give me a shout out.

    Im a single OLDER mom, though strugglin BIG time with menopause and Depression..the combination is really awesome.

    XX

    kauaiblue

     

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