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Complex PTSD

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stephen92626
stephen92626

This is what I've been told I suffer with, unofficially, as it's not recognised in the UK as legit, I'm 48 yrs old now, had bad childhood till 14-15, I suffer flashbacks, severe panic attacks, nightmares, and a life of misery in my head, but because I've been in trouble with the police over the years, and took hard drugs, I don't seem to get any help, I just get prescribed anti-depresdants, which don't do anything for me, I've been attacked a few times in my adult life with machetes and knives and that also affects me a lot, but mainly it's from my childhood, I just think no-one believe me, as I'm a male and didn't like to say I was messed with as a kid, as it's hard to talk to someone you might see a couple of times, So I think this is how rest of my life is going to be, I'm living in a timebomb in my mind, and it's always there, something every day brings me back to my childhood and I hate it, Doctor just giving me ssri's ithink they are, they can't stop my mind working 90 miles a minute, sometimes I'm a complete wreck inside, but I try and smile, it's tormenting g me, Sorry, just had to say something

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  • bill78216
    bill78216 stephen92626

    Posted

    I’m sorry you have to endure such torment with you illness. I question if you have a regular therapist who can help you with some of your problems from the past? I have a friend who is suffering as well and he is behaving in a very irrational way. He’s being very destructive and damaging to most of his friendships and family. I don’t know how to help except just suggesting he seek help on his own.
    • stephen92626
      stephen92626 bill78216

      Posted

      Hiya Bill, I've just moved into my own flat, supplied for "vulnerable"people, as I was going through messy relationships, and it was always my tempers, i never hit a lady, but come so close, and my lifestyle was chaotic, nightmares, scared of certain things, they couldn't understand I think, anyway what I'm getting to is my Housing officer has put me in touch with a counsellor who sounds positive for me, it's just me ,being male, I've told my childhood story about 6-8 times to different counsellors and it's really hard going over the details every time, but I suppose if I want help,I have to, then again I don't have to go into details,do I?? Thanks for your kind helpBill

  • sam18386
    sam18386 stephen92626

    Posted

    Hi Stephen, your life sounds extremely difficult. You need to take time out for you. It sounds a fact question but have you asked for specialist counselling, I have a PTSD counsellor for instance who is helping me to unravel my life. May be this will help you.
    • stephen92626
      stephen92626 sam18386

      Posted

      Hiya Sam, I'm in the UK, and its hard to get diagnosed,unless you've been in the army and seen a psychiatrist, I seen a psychologist for 6 weekly sessions, but it was just me talking, I didn't get any diagnosis,or medication, I used to leave the sessions feeling a lot worse than I went in, I'm sure they think I'm just after medication Cos of my past drug use, as I now suffer with severe arthritis in lower back and both knees., So i don't seem to be getting anywhere

  • hedda99
    hedda99 stephen92626

    Posted

    Hi Stephen, who was it unofficially diagnosed you? Because there is a thing called 'complex interpersonal trauma' which if you google it, stuff comes up on cPTSD.

    Complex trauma is definately real. I am in Scotland and have been assessed as suffering from this, and I am now in a therapy group for people who have suffered complex trauma. It is provided by Adult Psychological Therapies in my area, and I know mental health services vary around the country, but there might be something available to you where you live.

    From what you have said it sounds very likely that you also are suffering from Complex Trauma, so you should be able to access treatment for this. And I don't mean medication alone, I mean psychological therapy.

    Please go back to whoever you spoke to and ask about this. Pills alone are not going to help.

    • stephen92626
      stephen92626 hedda99

      Posted

      Hiya Hedda, I've just woke up from a nightmare about my childhood as usual, it was my Doctor who told me ""unofficially" that cPTSD is not recognised in the UK, he's tried me on about 10 different anti-depressants, they all make me groggy for a week or 2, then my symptoms just appear, they never go away, and I'm 49 in July, and been suffering since 14-15, went wild with violence and drug use till I was about 34-35, in out of prison, not been prison since 1998, but I feel like I've got a life term of complete misery, the Baxxard step-father is dead 30odd years, but I'm left with his s**t he give me, He was a 24 stone Irish giant Builder, who everyone thought sun shone out his ass, but indoors was different, he beat my mam bloody sometimes, and she worked in factories and as barmaid, so I was always alone, I won't say anymore, I've gone off subject, it's just hard to talk face to face sometimes for me, it's hard to get someone I could talk to, I want/need someone or I feel like my head will burst open with all the crap I keep in it, I need to get it out, and sometimes I lose my temper, but I'm getting older, and slower with my physical symptoms now, so with panic attacks and hard anxiety I'm a walking mess sometimes, I can fake a smile for people sometimes, Sorry for going on.

    • stephen92626
      stephen92626 hedda99

      Posted

      I will talk to my Doctor about "complex interpersonal trauma"" see what he has to say about it, Thank you for your reply and hrlp

    • hedda99
      hedda99 stephen92626

      Posted

      Hi Stephen, from what you have said I think there can be little doubt that you need to see a psychologist. Your GP should be referring you - he/she may not know about 'complex trauma' - it wasn't till I had an assessment with a mental health nurse that this was finally mentioned - after years of GPs just handing me out anti-depressants. Maybe I am lucky where I am with the fact that there is specific help here for people suffering from complex trauma, but there must be some sort of help available to you where you are.

      If your GP won't refer you for psychological assessment then I think you need to try and see a different GP. It's not right that you should just be left to cope with all these feelings, when there can be something done to help you.

    • stephen92626
      stephen92626 hedda99

      Posted

      Thanks Hedda, I will mention it, and See what the Doctor says, Again I thank you
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