Complex Trauma (cPTSD)

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Hi, I'm not sure this is the right discussion page to post this. I'm only just starting to learn what 'complex trauma' is, having never heard of it before a couple of weeks or so ago, and it doesn't seem to be talked about much, so I'm having a hard time finding out what other people's experiences are.

I'm just at the very start of my treatment for this, and the reason I am posting is that just the term 'trauma' being applied to me is causing a strong emotional reaction in me. It's almost as if I have been in denial, and now that I have mental health professionals validating me and confirming that I have indeed suffered real trauma, I can't cope with it. I had a meeting with a psychologist a few days ago and although I've talked to other people about everything before, it felt more raw and more 'real' this time. I'm not sure why, maybe because she is specifically involved with people suffering from trauma, or maybe it's because she was validating things I had almost blamed myself for. I don't know. I don't understand why it would be that now that I am finally being listened to that it would actually make me feel worse. But I'm really struggling with myself just now, and I'm afraid that I'm falling into a pit of despair again when, after the long dark days of winter, I was just starting to feel a bit better again.

Sorry, I don't know what I want anyone to say in reply really.

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    Maybe you are feeling the way you are as you have spoken to people in the past you may have felt comfortable with, but talking with a psychologist is different, they are trained to get things out of you without realising, from what I understand it’s part of the treatment for sufferers, it gets worse before it gets better, hugs 
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    Hedda

    PTSD is generally when something happens in our lives like a crash in the car, we are unable to move on from something that has been stressful or frightening in our lives, all generally will be you discussing what has happened to you and the need to come to terms with this unpleasant, nasty situation you find yourself in and sorting out your fears and concerns

    Are you able to discuss your PDSD, can we help ?

    BOB

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    hi hedda

    i read your post and i relate to it i am on a massive journy at the moment where i have to face a person who caused me so much harm as a child that i am so scared that i die from having to see him i have always known what he did to me and no one ever belived me but now that i have had to tell some one half my age it is very raw very in the moment i do not know how i have manged to stay emotionless all these years about it i feel like i want to cry but cannot i want to ripe things up in to little pieces 

    do not appoligize for feelings and emotions  i am glade that you are getting help and are speaking to some one

    it takes guts to do this and you have my support 100% take each day as it comes

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      Thank you petram, I'm such a mess right now. Are you getting professional help? I hope so. I really didn't expect to be feeling like this. I thought that finally having a mental health professional take me seriously would be a relief, but it's actually sent me into some sort of tailspin. I think (like you I guess) I had squashed my feelings for so long that I didn't even realise by how much, and now that they have been 'set free' it's too much. It's so hard to still have to deal with the people who have made us feel this way  - I'm so sorry you are in this position too. 

      Lots of love to you xx

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      hedda 

      how are you doing today i have not sleep for 3 days now i am to afraid to close my eyes

      it seems hard to imagine that a grown woman can have so many fears its hard to describe whats going on in my head but i also have to work as i own the only business in the area and no one knows 

      i have to be happy smile shop keeper but deep down i want to run and hide so i do relate to your tailspin all we can do at times is take one little step to a more positive brighter day.

      and thank you for your kind words they mean alot lots 

      by the way the sun is shine here so thiers a smile for today

      take care petram    smile

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