confused and messed up and i dont know why?

Hi Sammi - I totally understand! If it makes you feel better ( which I hope it will) I wear the t shirt too. It says, \"I hate me\" and somtimes the me has an n on the end. I hope the medication helps you along the path, give it time, hopefully you will soon find your feet again. Its ounds like you are suffering, dont let him wind you down, The way you feel about you, its not your fault. Try and tell as much as you can to your doctor. I am the same, I hanve no self confidence, and I often think, \"what she got , that I dont\". Anyway, hope ive helped. Take care and chin up

[quote:006f7f59ae=\"sammi\"]i not long had a baby well he be 15 weeks old on tues but it was way before him ive felt sh*t about myself i started feeling like this after i had my daughter at 17 shes 5 now.

i feel worthless i feel fat i feel ugly im arguementative with my partner ive accused him of everything under the sun.

i feel like im struggling i feel like ive got no support im always crying and snapping majorly and i dont understand why ive got everything i could possibly want.

ive become a very jelous person and im very very insercure ive got no self confidence whats so ever i think everyone is agaisnt me all the time i feel evryone hates me.

ive just moved home which is making matters worse.

i feel like i hate going out with my partner because when i catch him looking at another women whos slim and pretty or got half her tits hanging out it makes me feel so so sh*t and i have ago at him and tell him he cant possibly love me if he needs to look at other women all the time we constantly go around in circles with this arguement.

he says he just looking around at everybody but i know damn well what hes doing hes told to many little white lies and hidden stupid little things from me which of all i have found out and copped even more at him for liein and hiding things from me i tell him that no matter how big or small he shouldnt do that as it only makes me more weary of things but he says he dont tel me things because of the way i will react.

im stuck with my feelings on my relationship i feel so crap[/quote:006f7f59ae]

Hi there Sammi

Firstly let me congratulate you on the birth of your son.

It sounds to me like you had post natal depression after your daughter and didn't receive the right (or any) treatment for it.

Have a chat with your midwife or health visitor. Did they not give you a check list to complete at one of their home visits to check for any signs of depression?

You will be feeling extremely tired at the moment - what with a 5 year old and a young baby to care for.

Please do speak to your health visitor and of course your partner and let them know how you are feeling.

Good luck and keep us informed of your progress.

Melbi x

The thing is, Midwifes and GPs can scan for depression (PNd) and not get very far, from my experience and mothers who talk about it - does anyone ever tell the truth on that questionnaire?- which seems to have the most ridiculous questions in it, and asked at such a time. The world is mad!!!!

Sammi- when I say i totally understand. I really do understand. Youve just had a baby, practicallly the whole world has been round your privates, again and again, Yoour exhausted, you had this little treasure growing inside you for months, and that baby is a treasure, but you want to feel like that treasure. Feel special, for someon to give you a hug ( and say that you are just as lovely as that babyis told day in and day out).

Hold it close to you. Love your little boy. Make sure you get enough sleep. Try and talk to your partner, tell your doctor everything, dont let it carry on. Be brave, otherwise you could get worse, Be brave for youas a loving mum. And have a huge hug from me. Take care, but try and ttalk, walk and then rest, Hugs.

cheers you lot nice to have some response back xx