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Hello, I am in a contant state of anxiety, mainly thinking I am going to die and leave my 5 year old son without anybody, I am a single mother and was in a very emotional abusive relationship, and when I got pregnant he wanted nothing to do with it. I have been on a rollercoaster ever since, dealing with housing, financial worries etc. More recently I have been having acute anxiety, heart palpitations, fight or flight chemicals racing in my body, no sleep, just generally feeling terrible and absolutely convinced I am dying of some disease, usually a disease that will be embarrassing too. The main cause I think is that I live in a cosntant state of regret and embarrassment for all the things I have done in my life,, stupid mistakes, drinking, blacking out and doing destructive things to myself when drunk. I left the love of my life for this absuive relationship and I cant help wonder what would have been, now I am here, a shell of my former self and basically constantly convinced i am going to die from cancer even aids! Its a torture to be in my own head. Is there anyone who feels the same?
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