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Hi there. Last year I went through quite a significant depression. Just couldn't deal with uncertainty and felt doom was just around the corner. Went through doctors and medication and finally got better after 9 months, although I don't credit medication (in fact I felt it made me even worse). I finally was able to snap out of it (I don't think it was doctors' either, just an enormours effort to rationalise the issues and believe there was nothing that could happen that I could know beforehand, and that nothing pointed rationally to any big problem surfacing), discontinue meds and started feeling much better. I had been well for roughly six months when suddenly a couple of weeks ago I went back to the same situation: really believing that my life is about to turn very ugly and that everything I worked for over 3 decades will be coming to an end as some sort of disaster will occur and I won't be able to enjoy anything. I just feel I cannot deal with uncertainty, or rather, I feel that in a few days something horrible will happen to me and there is nothing I can do to prevent it from happening. Although I have a very stressful job, this is a very strange situation as I am very successful both professionally and in personal life and never had any issues in the past with uncertainty or even decision making. Nevertheless, the feeling has resurfaced: I really believe that something very bad is about to happen to me which will take away everthing I achieved so far in life and will not allow me to enjoy what I worked so hard to have. The feeling is horrible as I wake up every hour in panic over the issue and most minutes I am awake I feel the problem just burning inside my head and am always either extremely nervous or extremely sad. Anyone out there that has this sort of issues with uncertainty and has been able to overcome it? Thanks
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