Constant hair pulling and anxiety over taking a hiv test
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Hello, I am battling a very bad point in my life. I broke up with my EX fiance and 3 months after that. I met a male friend and we had unprotected sex. He used pull out. This man was in a realationship. My low self esteem and my depression lead me to sleep with this man. 2 weeks later I was diagnosed with Trich which is a STI. Him and his gf both went to be tested and both were positive for Trich. She told me she has tested negative for all other and he said the same. I am not sure if I can believe him when he lied about having Trich. He did tell me that he did not know he had it until he was tested for it but I can't believe him. Here I am today trying to get over being infected with a parasite and possibly HIV. I am frozen in fear to take a test. I have picked out all of my eyebrows and the from part of my hair in the front. When I found out I had Trich, I cried for 3 days and I just recently told my mom about it and she held me in her arms.
I am so smart and knew better than to do what I done. I negative for all other sti and got a Norma pap today. I just haven't test for HIV yet. I am scared too death and often have thoughts of suicide.
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su1977 Celeste1992
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Sweetie, don't hurt yourself. I know this is so tough. I have health anxiety too so I understand the stress of getting tested. Keep in mind HIV is rather difficult to contract. A one time incident reduces the odds considerably and being the he didn't ejaculate in you reduces it even more. I'm sorry you contracted trich but from what I understand it's a common STI and easy to transmit. I'm thinking easier than HIV. And if both have tested negative then you have nothing to worry about. I know you don't trust them and that's understandable but if they were tested for the trich, odds are their doctor recommended other tests too including HIV. You should still get tested just so you can have peace of mind. Most clinics can get your results in a matter of days. It'll feel like forever but when your results come back as negative you'll be relieved. Don't wait because the longer you do, the more you'll stress yourself out. In the end you know you'll get tested so get it done sooner than later.
Celeste1992 su1977
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Thanks so much. I haven't ate anything since Monday. I am very depressed
su1977 Celeste1992
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It's stressful but you have to eat something. Doesn't have to be much but it won't help the anxieties of you don't eat. Try and schedule the test asap. You can't continue this level of stress.
Celeste1992 su1977
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Thanks a lot. Earlier this morning I awoke from a dream about HIV and I jumped up and quickly made my way to the bathroom. My stool was watery and I felt like I had to vomit too. I went to the shower and became light headed and had shortness of breath. It was the worse anxiety attack I have ever had. I can't deal with this
su1977 Celeste1992
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It's all dress. When can you make an appt? It's imprtant you do otherwise you'll drive yourself crazy obsessing about it. It's like tripping off a band aid. The quicker you do it the less painful it is.