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Continuous Fear, No Longer Certain of Symptoms

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mcncheri
mcncheri

With allergy season popping up, my already extremely high stress has sent me overboard. I go into frequent crying spells + panic attacks multiple times a day, at varying levels of severity.

One of my lymph nodes has been swollen, and my throat (albeit it is covered in mucus. thanks spring!) has been ridiculously sore, making it occasionally hard to talk. Alongside this, I've had chills that come and go even in this 90 degree weather, abdominal pain, muscle tension on my chest, arms, and lower back, palpitations, headaches (unsure if these are sinuses or not. probably), chest tightness, constant running in/out of restrooms, etc etc. I could go into more detail here but that's a basic summary.

One of my friends has recently been diagnosed with lymphoma, and they're the same age I am. (16.) As a hypochondriac, naturally I went and researched symptoms and /oh boy/ I have a lot of them. But I noticedc these symptoms also overlap with stress/anxiety/allergy symptoms... To such an extent I can no longer differentiate what is what and if I should see a medicdal professional.

I've seen a doctor 3 to 4 times the past month, and have had multiple blood tests, ekgs, scans, etc. My most recent blood test and ekg showed a normal heart rate and nothing out of the ordinary cardiac/vitamin wise. (Cardiac blood test was maybe about two weeks ago with the EKG? Vitamin was about a month maybe at rough estimate with low vitamin B12  and D, both which I am now taking supplements for.)

I'm terribly afraid of dying, and these assortment of systems are driving me further over the age than I was. With my hardcore anxiety/depression mixture, I'm not handling this well, and my parents/relatives can't afford to take me to the doctor right now, nor provide me with a therapist.

Symptoms of lymphoma couldn't possibly evolve this quickly, right? I'm not sure if I'm losing weight quickly or not...but with the symptoms I've listed are the chances better being that it's just me poorly managing my stress and the like, rather than that? I'm mentally exhausted and lack any energy, but am too afraid to sleep to try and rest for fear of never waking up. Sites like these are my last hope for anything....

If neccessary, I can PM to discuss this matter further. But I'm such an emotional wreck so I'm sorry if I slip up here and there.

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  • jojomadi2011
    jojomadi2011 mcncheri

    Posted

    Exact same thing happened to me and was the throat that caused the lymph node to swell! That's the most common cause for them to swell. Don't waste time worrying as I did and spend all time googling. If u ha r a swollen throat that be the cause and it's completely nitnal
    • jojomadi2011
      jojomadi2011

      Posted

      If u have a sore throat and swollen lymph node that be the cause as completely normal that was ment to say x
  • anxietysite123
    anxietysite123 mcncheri

    Posted

    Sorry to hear about your friend.. It almost sounds like you're scared of catching what they have.. As you know, it isn't contagious, but your mind might be somehow scared that it is.. That disease in someone so young is rare. Like you said, it's allergy season.. It sounds like you're just having major panic attack symptoms.. Do you actually feel ill all of the time though? Worst case scenario is probably strep throat or something.. To answer your question though, don't you think it would be a HUGE coincidence if you both just happened to have the same disease the same week? Your body is making you have the symptoms. Pay no attention to them. Something would've shown up on your tests as abnormal.
    • mcncheri
      mcncheri anxietysite123

      Posted

      The lump is what's bugging me the most. I know I've been more stressed than usual, but I didn't think it'd be so bad yknow? The chills, the cough, the general illness lately is /unbearable/. I haven't had an anxiety-free/panic attack-free day in months. It would be coincidental, but I always end up worrying for the worst....
  • joanne230682
    joanne230682 mcncheri

    Posted

    I am currently in the same boat. Swollen lymph node thats not going down, cough, sore and tight throat. I have had bloods and chest xray done now waiting for an app at ENT. Honestly i think i am making my symptoms worse with worry but cant seem to stop myself. We both need to stop googling because that sends us into overdrive.
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