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Cotinuous suicidal thoughts

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mami5
mami5

I have BPD and PTSD among other diagnoses and been suffering with strong suicidal thoughts for weeks.  There's no getting rid of them, and living with them is becoming impossible.  Can't see a way forward anymore.  So tired all the time, have had enough.

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  • allison1984
    allison1984 mami5

    Posted

    Hi mami sorry your feeling so terrible have you spoken to your doctor? Its important that you get help since your having sucidial thoughts maybe go to the hospital you can get well.again. Again im sorry your feeling so low
  • betsy0603
    betsy0603 mami5

    Posted

    Are you on medication, mami5?  I'm sorry you are feeling so low.  This is not a permanent state and it would be a shame to do anything rash when maybe tomorrow, next week, next month things turn around and you'll not believe you had ever considered ending your life.  As Allison said, please seek help if you are at risk, now :-)
  • mami5
    mami5

    Posted

    Thank you both for your replies.  As I have been suffering with these thoughts for a while now both my CPN and psychologist are aware of my situation.  However, I've not had therapy session with psychologist for 4 weeks (suppose to see him weekly), and he's instructed CPN not to discuss suicidal thoughts with me.  As a result I feel I have no support and tend to take matters in my own hands and end up overdosing, which again, is something they know about.
    • betsy0603
      betsy0603 mami5

      Posted

      What are you overdosing on? I'm glad you have a therapist but, yes, you do need more support! I'm glad you have this forum.
    • allison1984
      allison1984 mami5

      Posted

      Hi mami how are you today hope you're feeling clearer today
  • mami5
    mami5

    Posted

    Thank you, again.  Have slept through most of today, as result of another od last night. 
    • allison1984
      allison1984 mami5

      Posted

      Hi Mami sorry it didnt alert me tho you had message me, how are you today
    • mami5
      mami5 allison1984

      Posted

      Hi Allison, no need to apologise.  Thank you for your reply.  I am still very low, but I think I'll be ok, thank you. x
  • lisalisa67
    lisalisa67 mami5

    Posted

    You can do this. These thoughts will pass. You are most likely stronger then the average person. It sounds more like you so very badly want to be pain and stress free more then suicide. Suicide will never ever be a fix.its like faith. So many preach faith and say they have it but the real true test of faith is when things go awry right? Have faith and live in the moment. Behavioral therapy is very helpful as it incorporates the typical talk therapy but teaches you proper breathing a better ways to rationalize out lifes occurances. I guess it incorporates cbt but in a different manner. I have found mirror therapy is useful, not known to many but its good. The body can mal function from extreme stress, trauma, illness not always in our control at all. Self love is really important, sound corny but it isnt. Pinterest really has a lot of helpful stuff on it and explains things so simply with infograohics. Worth a peak at it. 
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