Could I admit myself to a psychiatric hospital? Should I?
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At the beginning of last year, I spent about a week in a behavioral health center. One year has pasted and I have learned so much more about my mental illness. Last year, I was hospitalized for suicidal ideation. This was about the time my depression and anxiety got to a point where something needed to be done. I always knew that something felt off and this was when things really came out in the open. Unfortunately, I didn't feel like my hospitalization helped. Most of the other patients were in there for anger issues and cutting. I was diagnosed with PTSD about four months ago. Going to the hosptial in the past was my SASS workers idea, and at the time, I was 17 so I just did what I thought would be best. Now, I am actually starting to understand my illness but I still feel like I need some help. I am having trouble dealing with all of this and really accepting it. I am going everyday feeling depressed, no sleep, nightmares, panic attacks in the mornings, tired all the time, etc. It just feels never ending and my living situation right now, with my mother, is only worsening things for me. I just feel like I need to let things out and get ahead of this, but I don't think continuing like this is helping. The only time I leave the house is for counseling, psychiatrist appointments, or going to the pharmacy to refill my meds. I wasn't able to finish high school because of my illness, so I need to get my GED, I want to get a job and just find something to do. It really is hard to get out of bed when you have literally no purpose to the world, nothing to contribute to. I am having trouble focusing on myself, which I think is what I need right now. I want to get better and I feel like maybe spending some time in the hospital would help. Do people do this though? I have only ever heard of people that are suicidal being admitted..
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sam18386 Marie205
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Hi Marie, how you got ptsd is no business of mine but mine was through assault/rape twice two separate men, I do understand really I do. It's horrible to live with but with the correct support you can get to the bottom of it and sort it out so you can live with it. I sobbed this week the pain of being raped just breaks the strong person I am and makes me feel like nothing good. I always thought I was filthy and scum. I used to put nails up my arms until my arms bled, use bleach which caused endless infections and probably permanent damage internally and cut my hair so I looked ugly. I used to not eat and thump myself black and blue and think it was OK. I hate the fact that I was raped. The ptsd specialist I finally have found now understands as I had horrendous flashbacks over Christmas. You must get the correct help and psychiatry isn't the place even my counsellor sees that. I struggle as I have ibs on top. Keep fighting, ptsd makes you feel depressed like you're feeling but it's part of it. Good luck it's a horrible road counselling but you need to get you back, something I'm prepared to get back for me and if someone like your mum doesn't like it I understand that too as mine never did. X
stella32627 Marie205
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Hi Marie205,
I have been scammed last year March and bankrupt and in debt coz I stupidly believe the scammer I know thru dating site. Till now I still have flashback and sometime I want to end my life but I tell myself I have to be strong, money is important but most important I have good health and I can work to rebuild what I have lost. And I am grateful I have a job so it do help me to not focusing much on what have happen to me but occasionally I still have flashback. I tell myself I can't let this to affect our life forever therefore you have to tell yourself to put all this behind you and move on. Is not easy but we have to keep telling ourselves this so we can quickly recover from it and live a happy life.