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Could i be depressed? or is this fake?

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liv33928
liv33928

I'm 21 year old girl, and i'm the kind of person who gets irritated easily, and i'm tried all the time, i also get headaches , the feeling of tightness in my throat, i bite my nails til it hurts, i get overwhelming feelings or feel numb, these are the only kind of feelings i get, i overthink all the time, isolate myself a lot, i just don't want to communicate with anyone, i'm losing interest in stuff etc. but I dont know if this is just normal stuff or im making this all up in my head, or if all of these symptoms match some sort of a depression? I don't have the courage to go to see a therapist and get a proper diagnose, and i was wondering if anyone feels the same and could help me understand more. The thing that utterly surprises me is that i have absolutely no reason to feel all of this, nothing traumatic happened in my life or something like that, it just came out of the blue, that's why i can't really get it. It has been going on like this for ​a whole year but i denied all of these symptomes because i was thinking this was all due to college stress and that once school is over then everything will be just fine, but it wasnt, it got worse actually for the whole summer for no particular reason and it's not getting better I just dont know what to do. I'm constantly wondering if Im making it up in my head and making myself believe that I have a depression because there's no actual cause for all of this, and it feels like i'm making it all up or something. 

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  • hanna94624
    hanna94624 liv33928

    Posted

    Hi! I understand exactly where your coming from, I feel like that too. Things that people do just irritate me and I always feel really tired no matter how much sleep I get. I never told anyone for a long time because I thought I was just over thinking ad just making it up in my head but it got to the point where I was in my room all day every day avoiding any kind if social interaction. Maybe try and talk to someone you feel comfortable with, like a close family member of friends? Then they can help you the rest of the way. Mine came basically out of the blue too! No traumatic situation, no one died but

    I still felt so... Sad all the time, I still don't really know what it is.

    I hope that everything is sorted out for you soon because feeling depressed is horrible. You are not on your own in this! 

    • liv33928
      liv33928 hanna94624

      Posted

      Hi, thanks for the reply! I actually did talk to my close friend, she knows about it all and saw me struggle with all of this, she's the only person who doesnt irritate me surprisingly and i feel like i can tell her anything without being judged. she basically went through the same and even worse but it was due a traumatic event in her life, now she's way better and she's extremely supportive with me and she takes time to listen and tries to give me advice and helps me out the best way she can, and if it wasn't for her it'd be way worse for me, but it's still tough, it's exactly how you described it about staying in my room all day long laying in my bed, and not wanting to get out of it. 

      Have you tried to seek for help by seeing a therapist or something?  I Mean have you had a proper diagnose ? Like i mentioned it i really don't have the strength nor the courage to see a therapist rolleyes 

       

    • hanna94624
      hanna94624 liv33928

      Posted

      Honestly I haven't had a proper diagnostic or seen a therapist because I'm too scared of it! But then in some ways I really want to see one. The only person I have talked to about this is my best friend, because she notice changes in me. She's notice how I am always looking tired and just generally very irritated and it was like anything someone said could just get to me and like you said it's just her who doesn't seem to stress me out. I'm hoping that I will build up the strength to see someone about this and to hopefully make it stop 
    • liv33928
      liv33928 hanna94624

      Posted

      We're basically on the same boat then...

      i wish i could do that too and get rid of all of these feelings and constant guilt that i have thinking that i'm faking this or just pretending. My close friend assured me that this wasn't fake at all and try to believe her and convince myself that it's not possible to fake these physical and emotional symptoms but i just can't take the guilt away 

    • hanna94624
      hanna94624 liv33928

      Posted

      Your friend is right, you're not faking how you feel, I know how it feels to always think that! That's why I've only told my friend because I guess I'm worried that people will say I'm just pretending or lying about it, but my friend said they wouldn't and I wish I could believe her fully and just do it. 
  • nick77372
    nick77372 liv33928

    Posted

    First pof all go and see someone don't be embaresed I have the same and more and also for no reason and I've been fighting it and still am so go and see what's wrong now don't go through it or try to pass it off really before it gets worse see if you can fix it good luck
  • richard89308
    richard89308 liv33928

    Posted

    its probably just worry over exams causing you to be anxious.. rather than depression.

    Richard

    • liv33928
      liv33928 richard89308

      Posted

      That's what i believed at first during exams and school time, but this summer (from the moment school was over in June, until this minute), these feelings/symptoms did not cease, on the contrary, they got worse, and like i mentioned it before, i have absolutely no reason to feel that way, no exams, no trauma or any other stressful situations, that's why i've started this discussion, in order to see if there's anyone who feels the same and could help me sort this situation out.
  • richard89308
    richard89308 liv33928

    Posted

    anxiety is insidious it creeps up on you.  I have a form of it and it isn't fun. Are you on any anti anxiety meds at all or just surviving without them?

    Richard

    • liv33928
      liv33928 richard89308

      Posted

      I'm not on anti anxiety meds, or any kind of meds, i would want to find my way out of this storm without using any medications 
  • aad
    aad liv33928

    Posted

    Definitely speak with your GP or a councillor, but i suffered for years before i got proper treatment and i ended up on Sertraline, but that was not until i was 38 yrs old, all them years i struggled, and i really was pretty bad, Anxiety, Phobias, Depression, and a vile temper.

     Good luck and i hope you get to the bottom of your symptoms. 😊

     

  • jacquelinenm
    jacquelinenm liv33928

    Posted

    YES! I see this is a year old but I still needed to say something. I feel completely the same. And I always worry that when I go to a psychiatrist they are going to say that I'm making it all up and it's all in my head. I can't stand it, that's mainly the reason for some of my crying. How've you been? Have you seen a psychiatrist?

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