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Could I have HIV, should I get tested? or is this OCD and anxiety?

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aaron26318
aaron26318

First I'd like to say I'm 22, virgin [scared to have sex because I don't trust humans in general, humans lie] and I dont do hard drugs or drugs at all to be honest.

In January 2015 in my 2nd year of uni after the Holiday break I went back to halls, I'd often drink my milk from the bottle, one day [January 15th] I went to have some, after having a quick sip I noticed blood on the bottle rim [the bit you put your mouth too] I'm not sure if it touched my lip I washed my mouth in case and checked my gums ect, I saw nothing, although it was very cold that time and my lips may have been chaped.

This led me to believe that one of flatmates [two suspects] tried to taint my milk bottle, it freaks me out because one suspect does bio medical science and the other was a graduate working at a near hospitial. I lost all trust for all my flat mates due to paranoia and low trust for people.

Fast forward to may 2015, I started working out and lifting and by July I started having a numb right hand when going to bed and waking up in the morning, not sure if because work out strain or AIDS.

2016 After having panic attacks in august due to weed the my health concerns are out of control. Even to this day I still get a numb right hand when sleeping [not as much but sometimes, it still worries me]

My gums seem to be worse and I intent to get it review and possibly treated, I was not the best with keeping ontop of my teeth, but not that bad, I heard Peridontis can be a result of HIV as well as numb hands.

I had a blood test 3 weeks ago and everything was fine other that my Vitiamin D levels being low, Once again I read online that it can a sign of HIV? [I'm not sure if it's because after my panic attacks I stopped going out side and eat as much for a few months that my Vitamin D levels dropped] So do the UK blood tests done by GP's pick up HIV or do I need to go to a special AIDS clinic?

I've not had a wink of sleep and have been endulging in my usual bad habbit....looking on google for answers.

I intend to go to an place to get tested on tuesday hopefully, I'm so scared and keep thinking my life is forfiet and that I'll be a virgin forever all because someone tainted my milk bottle in the fridge abd I caught aids

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  • Marina_Dee
    Marina_Dee aaron26318

    Posted

    Aaron,you seem to be a very stressed out young man and finding it very hard to trust anyone.   Did you visit your GP to ask about the possibility of HIV? If you didnt mention it,then your Gp would not have asked for a blood test to identify it. What was the blood test for? Just because you are feeling stressed out and generally low?     Your numb hand could be just the result of you laying on a nerve. Take vitamin D and also try to get out in the sun...not easy in the Winter but sunshine is the best way to boost it.  You probably have neglected your teeth and gums and now need to take it seriously.  Get a toothpaste with Fluoride, and if possible an electric toothbrush,but dont use it too vigorously at first. Before brushing use dental floss to remove all the debris between your teeth. Do this twice per day.  If the gums bleed dont worry too much,if you keep up the routine it will stop eventually.   Also you should use a preparation called Gengigel which is excellent for repairing infected gums,but only after flossing and brushing.

     Even though you say you dont trust anyone,I notice you have asked the question on here, so it sounds as though you are desperate.

    Trust in your doctor,be honest and take his advice. Get a balanced healthy diet.  You will be fine.

    • aaron26318
      aaron26318 Marina_Dee

      Posted

      Initally the blood test was for reassurance that I didnt have some kind of blood cancer which I was also paranoid about, I wanted to have the check to see if anything was wrong with me or if the scenarios were all in my head.

      Now that has been done the HIV worry from Jan 2015 has surfaced more than ever and now I wish to get tested so I can focus my mind and getting back to my old activities, it's been hard since graduation but I've been able to put the worries and OCD aside and go out more 

    • Marina_Dee
      Marina_Dee aaron26318

      Posted

      Perhaps the test for HIV would be the last step in reassuring you that all is OK.      I am so glad to hear that you are putting worries behind you and getting out more....meeting people and talking to them will help you to start trusting again and take your thoughts away from worrying.       Patients with OCD are often the worriers as they want everything to be perfect and they are constantly trying to find perfection. What form does your OCD take? Checking or counting or rituals?      
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