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Hi everyone, my first time on here. Ok for the past couple of months ive been feeling really low. My eating pattern is ok bug as for sleeping i can barely sleep. Ill stay awake until about 5 am before i go sleep. Okay it first started when my partner had a cold then i caught the cold from him, that was like october last year, his went but mines seems like it didnt want to go. After about a month of having this throat cold i saw something online with a girl having a cold for over 2weeks then she did a blod test and it was cancer (with other sympthoms), straight away i started to think oh God thats me eeven though i neva had the sympthoms she's got. I went a&e they checked my throat, temperature and blood pressure and said i was ok. Still couldnt feel at ease so i went to my doctor that same week she did a blood test and check my throat etc. Everything was normal including my full blood count test. But its like am doubting the doctor, been doctor again this week they checked again and i was ok. But majourity of the time i feel like something is stucked in my throat especially when i eat. Still have my cold which the doctor gave me something for this week so hpefully it will go. I find myself constantly worrying every single day, its like my mind dont get no rest. Am emotional, i get headaches wen i over think, trouble concentrating, sometimes its like i cant really remember things so fast. Had a few panic attack. Chest pain that comes and go. Constantly thinking that theres something with me even though doctors say i'm ok. Fear of dying. And to top it off becus its my throat that scares me the most ill cant touch it, if ive got something like a flannel in my hand ill wash or scratch it if its itching me and also my breast, of recent i just cant. My partner touches it and its ok but with its like am scared to touch them.
i know i might sound lkke a nutcase but its really getting to my head as i was never like this. All i do is stay in the house hardly go anywhere. It just goes on and on. But its just my throat that p*sses me off more than anything,now am starting to think am i really feeling this in my throat or is my mind tricking me.
oh yh sorry i am 26yrs old
ps. Please dont judge, as i was really scared to come on here. Thank u
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