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Crippling anxiety.

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G0th
G0th

I've been suffering with anxiety for 8 years now and recently it has gotten agonising. I'm deeply afraid of dying prematurely (i'm 14) and in January i had a dream that just consisted of a number (it lasted for about 5 seconds) and now i'm afraid its my death date or something, there is no proof to this statement but i'm just afraid. I see a psychologist but not as regularly as i'd like to. I also had a health anxiety episode and had all the tests done to rule out the sickness i thought i had, still very afraid they are missing something though. i've lurked these forums for a while now and thought that writing something would help shed some light.

i'm so paranoid, my life feels like everything is going bad and i'm unable to function, go to school or talk to friends anymore. do you guys think my dream is actually what i believe it is or am i just being paranoid? researching has done nothing but confuse me more, i'd just like to feel normal and be able to function without fear anymore :c

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  • G0th
    G0th

    Posted

    I should also say that the only reason i believe this dream has any significance is because it's unlike any dream i've ever had before, i usually dream of weird things and people i know, never stand alone numbers?? looking into it only lead to things saying "an important date" and analysing the numbers in the dream lead to weird things like pregnancy, marriage, etc. it was a one off dream and never re-occurred but that makes me think it may be bad?? or am i thinking too much into it? i'd be 20 by the year that number said and i'd rather live. This period of anxiety is making me so unhappy, i hate it deeply.

    • lisa17089
      lisa17089 G0th

      Posted

      hey

      I too suffer from crippling anxiety but I am a lot older than you. you're reading far too much into this and need to stop focusing on this dream. I have some really terrible dreams also about numbers, people dying etc, the more anxious I am the more bad dreams I have. you're making yourself feel worse but thinking about it. it was just a dream nothing more. I dont know where you live but you need to go and see a doctor and tell them how you're feeling, they will be able to help you. you're far to young to be having to deal with this bad anxiety, you should be enjoying your teen years. just remember these are just negative thoughts going on in your head and you're feeding these by constantly thinking of them. cant you get a hobby or there must be something you enjoy doing to try to escape this paranoia. try to stay busy and just remember it's all on your head and nothing bad is going to happen. big hugs xc

    • G0th
      G0th lisa17089

      Posted

      thank you for your reply! i've never worried about dreams until this one, i'm doing my best to convince myself that it's simply just a dumb dream, i also talked to my mother about it and she said that if it had really meant something or was a sixth sense type of thing, it'd be re-occurring. Finding hobbies and enjoying things i used to is super hard now when i just get afraid that i'll die young and that nothing will matter and i won't get to live a full and happy life :c I get so terrified that it's a sign since i keep thinking i see more death related things ie, funeral service ads, crows, white butterflies, things about cancer and sickness. The last time something similar happened (thought i was seeing signs) was completely wrong but i'm just scared of being right i guess.

      Having multiple anxiety disorders and chronic worrying as a teen really makes you lose those years, i know it's just the start of my teen years but i'm so afraid.

  • jan34534
    jan34534 G0th

    Posted

    try to relax. A dream is nothing more than that. It’s not based on reality. People have all sorts of weird dreams but it doesn’t mean anything. Even our negative thoughts are not based on reality. Anxiety can cause us to have weird dreams and weird thoughts and negative feelings but remember, they are not a part of you they are separate from you. And you can let them go. Focus on the positive things. We can retrain our brain to do that. Relax, you are young. Don’t let those thoughts of fear control you. sometimes it really helps to talk to a counselor because they can help you manage this. I hope you feel better soon!

    • G0th
      G0th jan34534

      Posted

      thank you for the reply!! i guess that is right, though i have seen people predict their futures with their dreams and that scares me, i'm not sure why i associate this dream with death (perhaps because at the time i was terrified of dying and was extremely paranoid) so now i just think it's my brain telling me i'm going to die as a way to shut me up, who knows. Looking up numbers in dreams really didn't lead to anything to do with death (read something about even numbers being good and all numbers in that dream were even, even whilst added together since apparently that helps??? not sure)

      I'm doing my best to see professionals more often but sometimes it feels like temporary help because i just go back to being anxious and paranoid. None of my previous dreams have ever predicted the future, or even been possible in that sense. just scared that this one will be right and i'll die before i even get to live out my life, start a family, etc. I hope this all passes soon

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