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Crippling anxiety..... now what?

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Jaylee12345
Jaylee12345

So this is the first time writing in a forum. Iv asked for help from my doctor for a while, he wants me to take medication but even that scares me.

So Iv suffered with anxiety for as long as I can remember, as a child I didn't understand it & it could come across as being just naughty, but it was escape from the anxiety. School crippled me & I would spend my lunch breaks hidden in the loo sometimes as I could not face all the people, some days I was fine but not normal. I was always anxious. In the end I couldn't face school at all & would just not go. I didn't tell anyone about my anxiety, I'd just learnt to live with it. A few things had triggered it and things along the way made it worse but Iv never been one to openly talk about what I was going through so finding ways to cope was my only option, cope as in hide how I was feeling to the people around me.

For the last 12 years it's got worse, I worry 24/7, it affects my every day life but Iv learnt so hard to cover it up that I even myself forgot it's there until I have a really bad week and I can't even imagine how I can carry on feeling like this for the rest of my life.

I think it's probably time to start trying the medication... but that alone gives me anxiety incase it makes me worse and I don't know how I'd cope with that.

I suppose I'm looking for someone to tell me I'm not the only one who feels like this & maybe some advice as to what helped you get better x

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  • jan34534
    jan34534 Jaylee12345

    Posted

    you are the first person I have ever known where I can completely relate to .

    I actually never spoke in school and I was terrified of everything. I also held it all inside and my parents never knew how miserable I was. I always felt like I was in that fight or flight mode. People would just say that I was sweet and shy. when in fact I never developed a sense of who I was because I never expressed myself. I just wanted to stay home with my mother all the time.

    And as I got older I lacked confidence and was always feeling anxious. I ended up getting married and having kids which I enjoyed and at the same time it was my escape from the outside world.

    I still deal with anxiety and have not found a medication yet that works for me. Some of them actually make me feel worse. I’m going to talk to a doctor to figure something out I don’t know what the answer is honestly.

    Maybe there is a medication that would work for you. The only thing that helps a little bit is when I get lots of exercise because that somewhat calms me down but it’s not enough. I am so sorry you are going through this.

    have you ever considered speaking with a counselor who can help you manage this? you need support right now. it’s too difficult to try to deal with alone believe me!

    the medication it’s not harmful it’s just that it’s hit or miss with them whether they work or not.

    keep in touch whenever you need to talk about this. take care of yourself❤❤❤

    • jan34534
      jan34534

      Posted

      By the way, I have always called mine crippling anxiety also. Because that’s exactly what it does. Nobody really understood what I meant. that’s the frustrating part

  • sasical72
    sasical72 Jaylee12345

    Posted

    Hello,

    You are certainly not alone on this one. If you don't want medication, I think you could really benefit from some therapy. A problem shared is a problem halved. By simply getting it out in the open it will decrease somewhat and then if you get a good therapist she/he can really help you feel better.

    Good luck x

  • ZombieBlood2k
    ZombieBlood2k Jaylee12345

    Posted

    I really would take the Doctors advice, medications are lifesavers. Not for everyone, but my anxiety disorder (GAD) is so crippling and debilitating I had to get on disability. If I didn't have meds, life would be a constant hell.

    I respect when someone doesn't want to take a medication, but sometimes they are a game changer. You can continue to suffer or give it a try. If you don't try you will never know. Anxiety can be crippling, but also put in remission just like other diseases. It's a disease of the brain. Invisible to others.

    Wish I could help more. ( You can do it )

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