Cystocele and rectocele prolapse surgery. I am terrified.

I'm sorry you are feeling so anxious.  Your doctor could tell you the risks much better but the ones I remember are the normal risk of anesthesia, the risk that it won't fix the problem, and the risk that it will make incontinence worse.  People have also had problems with the synthetic meshes, reacting to them or having pain problems.  My doctor said this was because the surgeries weren't done by someone who specialized in the surgery and they did it wrong, basically.  It's always a good idea to have a surgery done by someone who is experienced with that surgery and does a lot of them.  

In terms of anxiety in general, for me getting more information about what it will be like helps me.  Pre-op I stumbled across a book about recovering from gynaecological surgery by Sue Croft.  Amazon has it in the U.K. and the US as an ebook.  I think it was 10 dollars.  It has a lot of information and I thought it was very helpful.  I've recommended it a lot here, but it really did help me.  She cover so the anatomy, how to go to the bathroom, explains prolapse, talks about the hospital stay, and also talks about the recovery.

i had the surgery a little over a year ago and it helped a lot.  The recovery was slower than my doctor thought it should be but very normal by that book and based on posts here.  I planned ahead, let people know what to expect, got help, and slowly worked to get better.

The discomfort of surgery is totally gone, bathroom issues much improved, sex is totally fine - no surgery issues now, and I am more active than I was before.  I was 41 when I had the surgery.  I have back pain issues so I am not running around and doing cartwheels, but then I wasn't doing them pre-op either.

also, I think that the risk of death from anesthesia goes up the longer you have to under for the surgery.  This is a fairly short surgery.  About an hour, I think.  Unless you have an underlying risk, like a heart condition, I think you are at very low risk given your age.  Fwiw, my uncle went under anashesia in his 50s and had a heart attack on the table.  Turns out, being in the hospital with lots of doctors actively monitoring you is a pretty good place to have a heart attack, if you have to have one.  He was fine.  They took very good care of him.

i hope this helps you feel a bit better, and do at least take a look at the description of the book.  It really helped me.

You need to settle down and realise you'll be fine and down the track you will wish you had it done long ago. It's a very commonly done surgery. You MUST have a Urogynaecologist perform it though. Most of your anaesthetic risks are already eliminated cause you're having a spinal one. Are they going to do sacrospinous fixation? It's a long road to full recovery but SO worth doing. Make sure your bowels are fully sorted before and especially for the 1st week, then ongoing until normal habits are formed. 

Hi Sweetlov, 

Please don't worry I know it's easy said than done . But believe me like you had fear dying , if ever had op .

Other than giving birth to my sons one kidney infection never been in hospital . 

Like you I was damaged inside through giving birth twins boys.  Same happen to me forceps was used my son was punched out as it was either lose him or save him . Rather save him as still would 27 yrs on .

Anyway I had prolapse done 11 days ago , cervix / uterus and wall linning stitch back , I chose be knock out fully do not regret this .

The only problem had with recovery was constipation never wish that pain on my worse enemy . Now fine with odd twinge tummy Back ache . By Friday hope be driving again . 

After had done feel like new women . Hope all goes well hear if you need chat x

Dear Sweetlov, 

You will NOT die from this surgery.  You tell yourself every day, "I will not die.  I will be fine and I will conquer this paralyzing anxiety."  Pray about it, or meditate and just know that this fear is not real.  Do not let it interfere with your daily life or having this much needed surgery.

Absolutely only have the surgery done by uro/gynecologist under anesthesia.  

Love from Texas,

Sherry