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Hello. I recently went through a relatively traumatic experience in August. I lost a pet that was very special to me and I lost her in a very bad way. After about a week of severe grief and even more crying, I woke up, went to work and noticed that there was this random dark spot in my peripheral field of vision.
This spot is located in the mid to lower left hand corner of vision in my right eye, just inside my vision next to my nose. When I would strain my eyes outward, the spot would grow. When I pull the skin down on my cheekbone, the spot grows larger and looks almost like 5-6 little hills that travel downward in an arc-like fashion. The hills are a thicker black towards the tops of the hills, and fade clearer towards the bottom.
Also, the spot grows more distinctive when my eyes stress upward and to the right. When my eyes are relaxed, I don't notice it unless I'm looking up and at a plain background, or I'm straining my eyes outward. The image I see almost reminds me of paint when you add water to it- where the bulk of color spreads in one direction and the rest clears.
When I am simply looking around the room as normal, I don't seem to notice the black arc, which again, is dimmer and barely noticeable when I am not straining my eyes (though it is still present). The times I do notice it when my eyes are relaxed and acting as normal, is when I am looking both up and to the upper right. During this scenario, the arc looks like a little sliver of a shadow like a crescent moon.
It almost seems as if the spot is dim enough so as I could ignore it in general, but I can't stop thinking about it or testing it. And when I test it, it gets bigger as stated above.
After obsessing about this and testing it frequently, I noticed there is an area in the same place in my left eye- though not as prevalent nor widespread. My left eye seems to house only 2-3 hill-like anomalies when I stress my eyes upward and to the left. It has been about a month and a half and seemed to have gotten a smidge dimmer, but definitely not going away.
Some days I can ignore it, but mostly it's always in the back of my mind and my obsession to test it resurfaces. It scared me enough, that after a week of it not going away, I scheduled an appt. with an ophthalmologist. He did a full check of my eyes: took pictures, did a thorough exam of the front, middle, and back of my eye and determined that there was nothing wrong. He said my vision was perfectly fine.
It isn't fine.
For I also have an issue where - in both my eyes - when I am looking up as far as they can or to the far left/right, there is a a little circle that grows the farther I stress my vision in both eyes that turns a different color. In natural light it looks more greenish, and in dimmer, fake light, it looks more blackish. Yet, the specialist found nothing wrong.
I am at a loss of what to do. I'm planning to go into my regular MD and have a physical done, tell them the story, and then see what they recommend doing.
The stress of this is starting to affect my life in a negative way and I have grown very anxious and panicky about it and other things. I just keep worrying this won't go away or that another strange anomaly will occur and one day my vision is going to be covered in issues and I will have no answers.
Has anyone out there ever experienced something like this before? I can't seem to find any single symptom online that relates to this and I have produced a RIDICULOUS amount of research on it. I have sorted through a glossary of every eye issue in the book- and not one matched the description of what I am seeing.
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