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My name is Lauren and I am 20 years old attending nursing school. I also struggle with severe anxiety and PTSD. I need advice from anyone who could relate or help in my situation. I met my boyfriend, Evan who is 24 years old. His addiction began soon after he was prescribed OxyContin and Xanax when he was a freshman in college. He was injured playing hockey which is why he was prescribed pain medication and Xanax was for his anxiety. The pills took control of his entire life and his college career. He started to party a lot, drink a lot, take pills, and then he became very isolated. He was antisocial and depressed.
After relapsing 6 times and going to the ER, in and out of rehabs he is in recovery...that I know of. When I met him he really underplayed his addiction and had told me he had a minor problem with Xanax and as we continued dating I found out more and more and more....my dad did a background check and his track record was extremely extensive. He has had numerous arrests and charges with possession of herion and paraphernalia. Also his mood swings are horrible and all over the place. He punches holes in walls, doors, breaks things, and hurts himself purposefully. I try to give space between us and he tells me he's going to kill himself. I can't take it anymore. I love him more then anything but I can't stand him going from 0 to 100 in a matter of seconds. I can't tell if he's using again. He has suspicious behavior. He asks me to go get suboxone for him and I end up in the hood where I shouldn't be. He smokes weed every day but claims he doesn't use opiates/herion/benzos.
My family absolutely hates him. My family threaten to kill him and have even gone as far as accusing me of doing drugs with him because I've lost 35 lbs in the past year. It's because of stress and anxiety plus nursing school. He's terribly mean to me but then apologizes after.
He's mean to his family and blames everybody else but himself. Then I feel like it's my fault. I'm so upset and I wanted to start going to alanon to understand him. I just don't have anymore energy. My parents have tried to get him arrested.
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