Day 4
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Hi,
On day 4 now, was easy up until last night when i hardly slept and now i think i have the flu.
I think the mental side is the hardest trying to stop yourself making the shop.
My main reasons to stop was racing heart, liver\kidney pain. After 4 days the liver pain still comes and go's and the kidney pain and racing heart have calmed down.
Will find out on the 18th if i have cause major damage(lets hope not)...
Guess it is 1 day at a time.
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al5aph49 tambdy
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tambdy al5aph49
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How are you getting on, been off the drink long?
al5aph49 tambdy
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tambdy al5aph49
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Hopefully my pains will stop soon and the results will come back ok and then i can just worry about my barretts. Feel's good but with having the flu the sleepless nights are terrible.
I hope it passes soon.
Richardt tambdy
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tambdy Richardt
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The symptoms have not been to bad apart from the constant dhydration and liver and kidney pain. Once my results come back if i am ok it will all be worth it.
Richardt tambdy
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liz05654 tambdy
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i really thought I was going to die. My liver hurt, my kidneys hurt and my heart and lungs hurt. I couldn't breather, couldn't sleep, couldn't walk,couldn't sit still and cried and screamed for hours.
Then out of the blue, and I don't know how or why, my doctor and parents turned up.
I was given loads of tablets. I don't know what they were. But they were anti nausea, anti depressants, anti anxiety and sleeping tablets. I went to stay at my parents house so they could look after me.
Dont get me wrong. It wasn't easy. I really thought I was a gonner.
I did cold turkey.
my doctor told me, and he has a lot of experience with alcoholics, that you only need to wean yourself off alcohol gradually if you are a chronic alcoholic. Apparently 4-5 bottles of wine a day for 5 years isn't chronic. 4-5 bottles of vodka is a different story.
immtelling this now because I stayed sober for 2 years.
i went to aa and although it was brilliant, it didn't help me. Because I haven't got the "faith". I don't believe in god and asking him to forgive me isn't going too help me. If you have the faith you're "sorted".
If you haven't the the constant conversations about alcohol, make the craving stay.
i needed to distance myself from it.
maybe I've got an obsessive personality. After the drink it was yoga, then, The gym, then food. I think I have the gene. I haven't got the off button.
everything is to the xtreme. And I don't know why.
i had a brilliant childhood, brilliant friends, brilliant kids and brilliant family and job.
everything in my life is good.
but it just must be something in me.
a self destruct button.
i started drinking again yesterday. And I feel sh*t. I loathe myself. I want to die. But I can't. I've too much to live for and too much left to do.
i need help. But don't know what that help is.
talking doesn't help.
sleeping doesn't help.
being awake doesn't help. Neither does reading, tv, sitting in the garden. I don't know what to do.
I'm reading a book at the moment about an alcoholic who recovered. I've not got to the end yet but it's inspiring me to read and maybe write about my own experiences. Maybe that's what I need to do. Help others?
tambdy liz05654
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I can now see this reply, you have been through so much.
Go back to the doctors and tell him, i only drank 1 bottle of wine at night and i worked full time so not as much as you.
I don't know how you managed to hold down a job drinking so much, you have done great over the last two years, have you stopped drinking again after yesterday? Maybe it was a blit.
I like you get addicted to everything..... I am here if you need to talk
liz05654 tambdy
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tambdy liz05654
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Thanks for your reply. your above comment has not came out for some reason. I am only 28 and been drinking heavily about 9 years i hope they come back ok, also going for a ultrasound of the galbladder so i will find out. Touch wood that i have not done some serious damage.
liz05654 tambdy
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Richardt liz05654
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