Death seems like a good option/only option. Don't know what too do anymore.

Mike:

I will pray for you. Life can be very unfair. It is by the grace of God that I am alive today.

Hi,

i life can be so very cruel at times, why aren't they offering you any treatment for your Crohns which must be horrible to have, I have been depressed for what seems like forever., I don't have the courage to kill myself though have felt like it often. I juust take one day at a time it's all you can do. I'm so sorry that I don's have any words to comfort you..

Val

Hello Mike. I too am severely depressed and very, very frightened. I have little advice to offer but offer my sympathy. I know how bad you can feel. With me it is Sjogren's Syndrome (auto-immune) of long duration and therefore severe + very bad back issues + fructose malabsorption + stuck open eustachian tube +++. Like you I find it hard to find a reason for living as I am alone, socialising is difficult, eating is a problem, I can't tolerate light, I have constant pain, no close family, friends have deserted me (which I totally understand but can do little to change). The friends who have stuck are the egomaniac ones that I seem to have attracted along the way and I am at a point where I can't stand such company; it just makes me feel worse. For advice - it is rather pathetic but the only way I get through is by taking one day at a time. It doesn't stop me feeling miserable and I long for the night when I can take a pill which will put me to sleep. I also have a cat. While I feel sometimes that I am too sick to care for him properly and can't even lift him because of my back, it is a comfort to have him around and on the bed with me at night - another living thing in my mostly empty and silent world. I also feed the possums at night. It isn't much and it isn't enough to make me feel life is worthwhile but Puddy and the possums are something outside of myself that I can focus on and when you are sick and alone you need something outside of yourself to try to focus on.

Can you perhaps get some advice from the Crohn's forum on this site? I apologise if I am saying this and you have already tried it; it can be really draining when well-meaning people talk to you as if you are stupid! Been there, had that.

I wish you well. Go gently for a little while - the loss of your girlfriend so recently will have increased your desperation. You will be grieving. Go gently.

With love, Maureen

😦 i kno this feeling to well i've been suffering with a lot atm to just keep thinking no end to it all there is only so much one can take hard battling with health issues i have loads of health issues & i seem to be getting know where fast with them i'm struggling daily & finding life in general hard work people keep saying be kind to urself but how do u do that when feeling so low 😦