Debilitating symptoms. Brain fog...extreme memory loss...spacey 24/7!

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The last year of my life has been a brutal one. At the age of 22, I am in the lowest of lows and I desperately need some help!

Here’s my tale:

About a year ago, a couple months after an extremely strenuous relationship, I began noticing that I was tired all the time…and all around, I wasn’t really satisfied. Don’t get me wrong, I still enjoyed my friends, and activities…but life just wasn’t as bright and vibrant anymore after a month of noticing this ever-present fatigue, it got a bit stronger. I would wake up each morning completely zombie-mode…and that feeling would remain throughout the entirety of my day, until my head hit my pillow that evening.

Initially, I suspected some form of sleeping disorder. I set up a sleep study, got my thyroid checked, ferritin levels, all the basics. Sleep study revealed I sleep just fine and all my other blood tests came back negative.

The fatigue and the weight of the world slowly got worse over the next handful of months, UNTIL I woke up one morning and everything escalated greatly. I felt completely stoned. I couldn’t think right. I couldn’t concentrate. I felt inebriated. I felt totally disconnected and spacey. I felt as though I had no control over myself. I lost drive and motivation. I lost a lot of confidence.  I always had an incredibly sharp memory. It was actually something well known about me to those in my family and friend circles. Yet, on this morning, almost all new information could not be retained. Things that happened earlier in the day, by evening, I felt they happened a day or two before. I could no longer recount the activities I took part in. This is possibly the worst of all the symptoms. The extreme short term memory. I have no context for time and I sort of feel like I’m just floating through life suffering.

For months I visited doctors getting tested by specialists. I visited a neurologist, infectious disease, I had an MRI, & I had about 20 different blood tests. NOTHING. My doctor literally said “I have no idea what this could be. I am beside myself” TOTES reassuring! I tried altering my diet entirely to organic and all natural. I continued my workouts and ran 15 miles a week. I tried sleeping even earlier. I tried all I could think of .

I have scoured the message boards and found a few people suffering from the same, but without answers.

I’m not sure if depression is the culprit, but depression sure has found its nasty venom-coated fangs into my veins. Tired, depressed, failed memory, no drive, scared…it’s no way to live. I want my life back.

PLEASE OFFER INSIGHT! I will be so grateful J


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    I feel the same they say its anxiety and depression and its awful !!!! I feel ur pain. Its depersonalisation! Mind was awful and now I'm on antidepressants its not as bad but its still not livable sad has your doctor said anxiety disorder?
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    Stiry if my life. What have you been diagnosed with?
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      Anxiety depression caused by pregnancy. I had it after my son 5yrs ago and it feels the same but its lasting longer. I'd say I feel 

      Spaced out

      Dream state 

      In a bubble 

      Like I'm not really there - nothing seems real

      Zombie / foggy 

      Is this how u feel?? Read about depersonalisation. I know how awful it feels. I darnt drive! X 

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      HI rachel62244 I know i am a bit late replying buto wondered how you got through this as I am currently going through the same symptoms of you as experienced and am struggling x
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      I used to feal that way as well I thought everyday I woke up like it was a dream , as a result a woke up laid on my couch and watched tv all day because I felt brain dead
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      Yes, this is exactly how i feel! Like during the day all i can think in my head is i feel so weird, i dont feel normal! Reading this really makes me feel beetrer tho! Have you found a solution, and if so what meds do you take?
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  • Posted

     Sometimes our bodies shut down and shut out horrible stress areas 

    Maybe it's as simple as that 

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    It won't leave because we hold on to it too much
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