Debilitating symptoms. Brain fog...extreme memory loss...spacey 24/7!
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The last year of my life has been a brutal one. At the age of 22, I am in the lowest of lows and I desperately need some help!
Here’s my tale:
About a year ago, a couple months after an extremely strenuous relationship, I began noticing that I was tired all the time…and all around, I wasn’t really satisfied. Don’t get me wrong, I still enjoyed my friends, and activities…but life just wasn’t as bright and vibrant anymore after a month of noticing this ever-present fatigue, it got a bit stronger. I would wake up each morning completely zombie-mode…and that feeling would remain throughout the entirety of my day, until my head hit my pillow that evening.
Initially, I suspected some form of sleeping disorder. I set up a sleep study, got my thyroid checked, ferritin levels, all the basics. Sleep study revealed I sleep just fine and all my other blood tests came back negative.
The fatigue and the weight of the world slowly got worse over the next handful of months, UNTIL I woke up one morning and everything escalated greatly. I felt completely stoned. I couldn’t think right. I couldn’t concentrate. I felt inebriated. I felt totally disconnected and spacey. I felt as though I had no control over myself. I lost drive and motivation. I lost a lot of confidence. I always had an incredibly sharp memory. It was actually something well known about me to those in my family and friend circles. Yet, on this morning, almost all new information could not be retained. Things that happened earlier in the day, by evening, I felt they happened a day or two before. I could no longer recount the activities I took part in. This is possibly the worst of all the symptoms. The extreme short term memory. I have no context for time and I sort of feel like I’m just floating through life suffering.
For months I visited doctors getting tested by specialists. I visited a neurologist, infectious disease, I had an MRI, & I had about 20 different blood tests. NOTHING. My doctor literally said “I have no idea what this could be. I am beside myself” TOTES reassuring! I tried altering my diet entirely to organic and all natural. I continued my workouts and ran 15 miles a week. I tried sleeping even earlier. I tried all I could think of .
I have scoured the message boards and found a few people suffering from the same, but without answers.
I’m not sure if depression is the culprit, but depression sure has found its nasty venom-coated fangs into my veins. Tired, depressed, failed memory, no drive, scared…it’s no way to live. I want my life back.
PLEASE OFFER INSIGHT! I will be so grateful J
Sincerely,
Taylorsaurus Rex
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rebekah2222 TaylorMason
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maya51673 TaylorMason
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Hello.....my name is Maya...im from Germany
All this stuff is happening to me....one year....i thought im going crazy....but after 8 months off beeing in the dark...and treatment with AD...and benzo...( didn't work at all)...i finally came to right doctor who has checked my tyroid
And guess what...i have hypothyroidism...a lot of people is misdiagnosed...nobody told me that this could be tyroid issue...i had luck and found it on net that this could be the reason in my case...hope it helps...im still not ok...im on syntroid 6 mounths...my tsh finnaly came in good level...so im waiting myself again...cos now i feel like im half crazy and dead
TROUnation TaylorMason
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Wow, I'm sure glad I found a group of people with the same problem. I've had whatever this is for over 5 years and I'm only 16 years old. Now I don't know if this is an an active forum, but if it is, have any of you felt, not real, like you're not alive at the moment? Happens to me way too often at school, and it makes me a little too uncomfortable and scared. I don't have much of a social life because of these symptoms, and I'm super scared in taking driving lessons next year, knowing that I can't concentrate or focus even if my life depended on it. I have all of these symptoms you guys are experiencing and I'm just curious if "not feeling real/alive" was one of yours. I seem to get really red and hot when this happens, and get really confused of my whereabouts.
Loskillshot TROUnation
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I'm going through the same thing and I feel for you friend. I feel this every day of my life.. it's torture for sure but don't give up. When you feel this way connect with the people close to you. Find someone that you are close to and lean on them when you feel this way. I know the feeling buddy... I feel.... disconnected.... Empty... sur-real.... what helps me is staying connected to your close friends or relatives. I don't know about your religious standing but for me I even talk to my God sometimes in my head. Sometimes even out loud (when I'm alone) whatever is important to YOU. Whether it's your girlfriend, close friend, parents, etc just stay connected to them. Watching funny videos on YouTube helps. Even video games If your into video games lol. It's a Horrible torture to go through every day but you CAN channel it. Don't let the feeling consume you, stay well my friend. You are in my prayers tonight.
april71592 TROUnation
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I had the same exact fear about driving but trust me it all works out. Try excercising and taking b vitamins. Most importantly and the hardest thing to do is try not to think about it. Anxiety is a HUGE pain but you can beat this. Best wishes 🙂
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chelcie96764 TaylorMason
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Hey everyone! Honestly i'm quite relieved to have found this discussion bc i dont feel alone. Im a 26 y/o female and i have the same symptoms as y'all! Brain fog, spaced out, random shooting pains in my head lasting for a few seconds, feeling more nervous when I drive bc i feel so zoned out! Its really scary. I feel i cant drive far anymore and my memory had decreased drastically! I used to remember everything! If i can remember right, it must have started after i gave birth 4 years ago. Im not sure what it is and whats causing these symptoms but i want to see a neurologist, eye specialist, anything and anyone who can give me some answers. I also hear ringing in my ears at times too. Every time i let someone know of my symptoms they think im crazy but they just dont know bc it never has happened to them, luckly!
SGTdebo305 chelcie96764
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rachel62244 chelcie96764
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Am the same and it started in late pregnancy October 2014 (she was born January) They said it's pnd and anxiety. I'm still lightheaded with a dizzy off balance drunk feeling, concentration is very poor so is my memory
it's awful.
SGTdebo305 TaylorMason
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I'm sorry for how you are feeling, Know that you are not alone. Exacly what you are going threw is what I'm going threw it's hard it just started getting worse for me. Idk what to do I can't live like this day by day I wouldn't be able to handle it. It has gotten in thr way of work and how I see life. It feels like days keep going by and I'm not there, like I didn't live that day. When it was just depression and anxiety. I started working out and running. That's the only thing that I noticed helped with my sleeping. Idk if it will work now but you could give it a try. I have to take zzzquil every night to sleep and sometimes that doesn't help but most nights it does. I am not taking medication and I'm still trying to figure out what helps with the way my head feels and waking up on zombie mode or the feeling of I just don't want to get up laying in bed for hours without wanting to get up.just know you are not alone and if you need someone to talk to I'm here. Let me know if you find a solution
michael30415 TaylorMason
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andus66160 TaylorMason
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I decided to do some research into how I was feeling and what I was experiencing and came upon this site and so many people have described exactly what I am going through. I too have had the blood tests, tried changing my diet, being more physically active, keep myself busy etc. The hardest part is coping at work and not being able to perform at an optimal level. The brain fog, lack of focus and concentration is the worst. When I attend meetings I contribute very little, I'm deviod of ideas and cant think of constructive questions to ask. I never feel sharp or clear headed, every day is the same. A bit of history, nearly 30 years ago in my teens I used to smoke a bit of pot, when the pot first took effect everything would be clear and bright and I would feel great, then a minute leter I would get the brain fog and withdraw. I eventually stopped all together. Later I noticed the prescence of a dull headache at the top and towards the front of my head which has remained ever since, these days the brain fog and inability to focus/concentrate is the worst thing for me. Maybe the pot did some permanent damage, I was young and my brain was still deveoping, wish I could turn back the clock. If there is anything that could help sharpen my brain somewhat I would be over the moon. I too experienced anxiety issues, feeling down, negative which manifested 10 to 15 years later, I even went to a breathing specialist as my breathing was deemed to be contributing to the anxeity, the anxiety has improved over time somewhat but if only I could shake that DAMN BRAIN FOG!!!