Depersonalization

Yes that has happened to me too where it looks weird, doesnt seem real. I deal with bad health anxiety PLUS dizziness on a daily basis, the dizziness that feels like Im spinning or being shifted to the sides.... I also have this very SEVERE fear that I have hiv/aids which all started when my stupid sister & her friends pranked me and said they were hospital nurses notifying me that I have aids.... Also a fear that food is poisoned or that a car will come by me shooting at me. Just crazy Shyt. Im a senior as well but I am going to school. Im looking into therapy & im not on medication . Anxiety has so much symptoms it’s crazy ! 

Depersonalization, anxiety, fears, it’s all one circle that one deals with when it comes to anxiety. Fears are normal when it comes to anxiety and the anxiety will also give you depersonalization.  While I was in depersonalization I would know by feeling my mind disconnected from by body but it was really my brain fooling my senses and surroundings. 

You begin to think thoughts you fear as they worry you the more you think about them then you think they might happen when they won’t. This is where you come to the conclusion that you are not your thoughts, or more importantly your thoughts just really are thoughts and they won’t happen. 

You say you are one to not stay home. Good, do you work, play sports, or go out from time to time with friends or family? You can also rid of these thoughts by simply thinking positive or distracting yourself with an activity outside home.

Now if you think your going crazy don’t, know that no matter what happens this is all in your head and it’s mental. 

My anxiety was unlocked by having this horrible panic attack while high and it sucks to say it was my first ever panic attack too. Now the LSD thing in your food is quite funny I think you just need to eat your favorite meal and have someone tell you there’s no drugs in your food. All that is just mental but I can relate to much of your saying because Ive had fears of my own existence and have had thoughts that would pop into my head and say “is any of this real?” or “how am I here right now” but all this you must remember is mental and can only worry you more if you let yourself continue to think about it more. Good hopes friend have faith you’ll be fine i hope some of this helps 

Have you ever thought that it could be a dream? Like when you suddenly learn something about life that you didnt't understand as a child and realizes how inoccent you were before? 

Watch the movie "Waking Life", it had an important paper in my depersonalization recovery and I already even took LSD many times, before, and after my dp. Reality is f****d up to deal, especially in this new generations when knowledge about everything is so much avaiable and those religions and beliefs that used to give human some confort are not acceptable anymore. 

What you are expecting right now is a anxiety collapse because you are thinking about. At least you haven't takn any drug before, you know is 100% from your mind, and the same way you putted yourself in this situation, you can get out, by thinking. If you could erase the memory of this frightening thought you would start to live normally again until someday you would think the same thing and re-start the loop, but you can actually start not giving a f**k for this and just live life, enjoy all the small and good things life drinking some water or watching tv (maybe you cant even feel plesure in these things right now, i've been there), but eventually you will get tired of this and all the suffer and panic that you felt will make you stronger, and wiser. You can canalize your obsession with this on researches and studies to learn and gain knowledge, start meditating and learning about your mind, and one day if take LSD it may be scary but it's just a tool for another way of reality interpretation, you are going to die one day and this reality will be gone, but drugs like LSD and DMT have been showing that our interpretation of rwality and what we call life is just a little small part of what things, and time, and matter and senses really are. 

Watch the movie. 

I have felt the same way before. It is your mind that is playing trick. Read books on the power of your subconscious mind. Download PDF books on the power of your subconscious mind online.