Depersonalization pt2

(I posted this tree or four days ago) 

Does anyone else feel like they’re not real? Like, everything is a dream or looks funny? About a month ago something triggered my anxiety and it hasn’t went away since. I dropped out of my senior year of high school because of this and it’s been making me depressed. I’m on Paxil. I have been for at least three weeks and everyone tells me they won’t really start working for about a month or longer. I’m tired of living like this, it’s not like me to stay home. I’ve always had tiny forms of anxiety but it’s never been this bad. I constantly think that there’s going to be LSD in anything that I eat or drink and I know that sounds crazy but I can’t help it. It’s driving me crazy constantly thinking I’m going to go on some big trip when in reality I’m not and I know that far back into my mind. But I start convincing myself that it’s going to happen and my mind starts playing tricks on me.

This morning I woke up and I felt dizzy and I couldn’t really walk. It’s like my body felt dizzy but in my eyes everything was normal. I just need info and tips on all of this. Does anyone else do this? Or have stupid fears they cling to when they’re dealing with anxiety? I’ve done lots of research on my symptoms but I want to know if someone else feels the same way I do. 

(Now)

All of the paranoia started when I had a bad dream that I took the drug. I had started Paxil and it had made it a little bit better, but after the dream things got very bad. I’m feeling better than I did when I wrote the first question but not a lot. I’m thinking this has something to do with the Paxil. I’ve been really really depressed and sick to my stomach, and I have to make myself throw up for my stomach to feel better which I hate doing. I hadn’t ate for three days before yesterday and I had a few small things. It seems as if my anxiety calms down later into the night which I’m not sure about? I take my Paxil 10mg at 4 pm every day but I can’t seem to think that the Paxil is what’s making me feel this way. I feel extremely bad when I wake up in the mornings, it’s like a mixture between sad and anxious. Does anyone else do this? My gut is telling me to just quit the medicine cold turkey but I’m not sure if I should. 

(Also when you reply I really would appreciate not hearing about your experience with this drug or any other drug I’d rather not think about it. And I know it sounds really silly but I’ll eat something and lay in bed and convince myself that I’m going to start tripping when in reality I know I wont) 

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