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I've struggled with depression my whole life, the last year or so I've been pretty good but lately things just feel like they are going down hill fast. I have a 10 month old daughter who I love more than anything, but since having her my life feels like it's lacking any sort of excitement . My fiancé is different. He doesn't treat me how he used too, he used to be so loving, so caring. Now I'm lucky if he tells me he loves me when he gets home from work. I'm lucky if I get one kiss throughout the day. Sex is rare. At first I thought it must be the way I look especially after having my daughter but I lost all of my pregnancy weight, and am still losing. I'm a bit underweight now. 102 lbs 5 feet 8 inches . Everyone has been telling me I look sick. I feel sick. I feel morbidly depressed. I hate my life, I don't do anything but sit at home with my daughter. When my fiancé comes home we don't do anything. Weekends are spent inside on the couch. My self esteem is getting lower and lower I feel unattractive and my fiancée plays a huge role in that. He keeps nude photos of his ex girl friends, I catch him looking at another woman. And he's lied to me before, not about other women but about other major things so it's hard to trust him. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what the next steps are.
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