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Hi - i'm in my 50s and have suffered from depression on and off (more on than off) since my 20s. I've had several sets of cognitive therapy via my doctor and was on Sertraline for many many years. They dulled the worst of the depression and lifted me quite a bit initially but never felt like the complete answer and it just felt wrong to be on something for so long. The therapy identified my problems and i do acknowledge them eg low esteem, feelings of failure, excessive worrying etc but trying to stop my persistently negative train of thought has proved impossible so far.
So i did completely the wrong thing and just stopped taking the tablets before Christmas last. I did this mainly because i was starting to get alarmed by increasingly agressive and irritable feelings and behaviour which i attributed to the pills, rightly or wrongly. I would have thought i'd be well out of the withdrawal phase but as of now i'm feeling desperately desperately down all the time most of each day, worse than i've ever felt in fact which is really scaring me.
i've made an appointment to see my doctor again next week and see what he says but i'm starting to feel that i will never be right again. i just can't remember the last time i was happy.
thanks to anyone who's listening. Does anyone know of any self help depression groups in or near Newcastle upon Tyne? I've Googled but can't find anything.
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