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Long story short I just don’t care anymore. I don’t care about getting a career, a job, a social life, anything. I care for others well being and life- I’m just over mine. I used to be extremely sad all the time and I even one asked to go to therapy because I noticed I could be depressed when I was 11, my parents refused and said it’s too much money and that it’s all in my head. But you know what? I’m done being sad now. I just wanna be gone, falling asleep and never waking up sounds wonderful to me, it’d end the waiting. I’m just waiting to die. I’m tired and exhausted from my short ride here but I’m ready to leave now, i know I’m never going to do anything with my life anyway. It seems my depression progressed because of how long it’s been left untreated (I’ll say age 9-19 so 10 years) or I might’ve just became self aware. I’m not trying to do anything with my life, I don’t want to, I feel no drive, no motivation. Even with living with an abusive father I still don’t care enough to get a job and buy myself a new place. I just wanna be gone
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