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Went for ESA assessment and the strain of waiting for that brown envelope is putting me under such a strain.   Just want to hide away from the world. I know there's no way I could hold a job due to various health issues.   Have spent the day in a dark place in my mind I sometimes feel that I should just dissapear from my life but know I would hurt my family.  

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    Elizabeth don't despear there's always a light at the end of the tunnel , keep busy don't think about it , you will get your ESA as you are depressed, just enjoy your day and think positiVe , life is precious and you have a family that love you and I'm sure you love them , the brown envelope will arrive ,take care darling , and let me know of the outgoing,please 
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    Awww Elizabeth, i can imagine how your feeling, must be such a strain not only to wonder if your losing your benefits but being said to be fit for work as well. Im sure with depression your be ok as if ive learnt one thing and thats they do seem to taske notice of how once health affects them mentally. Hope it goes well for you, try not to worry

    Sue x

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    Hi Elizabeth,

    Believe me when I say that I completely understand your feelings. Thanks to the system I was also sent to that dark place, they really don't get it. I suppose when you are dealing with case after case, hour after hour then it is possible to become desensitised to the fact that you are dealing with human lives. I actually believed them when they told me my case was being dealt with.

    The size of the organisation is enormous, spread right across the country from Southampton to Newcastle and Cardiff to Belfxast

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    Hi Elizabeth,

    Believe me when I say that I completely understand your feelings. Thanks to the system I was also sent to that dark place, they really don't get it. I suppose when you are dealing with case after case, hour after hour then it is possible to become desensitised to the fact that you are dealing with human lives. I actually believed them when they told me my case was being dealt with.

    The size of the organisation is enormous, spread right across the country from Southampton to Newcastle and Cardiff to Belfast. Each department constantly duplicating each other.We are not people, humans, just National insurance numbers to be entered into computers and then instantly forgotten about. Do not let them get to you as all they will do is delete your number from the system, then they will forget you ever existed, but what about your family, your friends and your workmates, will they then forget, of course not because you matter your not just a number. Stay alive, keep living keep that number on the system.

    Best wishes for your future, Mike.

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    hi Elizabeth,,, the strain is enough just waiting for the assessment  THEN having to wait for that brown envelope,,, i know what you are going through,,,,  Ihave depression,, anxiety ,,, agraphobia,,, and to top it all PTSD,,,,got my assessment tomorrow after being this way for over a year,,, still attendind a psyciatrist and a mental health therapist who both have put in writing NOT FIT TO WORK,,,, huh wonder what tomorrow will bring,,, permantly in that dark place you speak of ,,,, unless your going though depression etc no one knows whst that dark place is like,,, people say theres a light at the end of the tunnel,,, but that tunnel for us is never ending so the light never appears,,, I hope you get what you deserve,,, please let me know.... gentle hugs xxx
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      Thank you for your recent support.  I was very relieved to find out today I have been put in the support group for ESA.  I feel as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.  I have been thinking about you I hope that you had somebody who was understanding of what you are going through when you had your assessment.  It's all such a strain as you say the light doesn't appear and things can be very black.   Please let me know how you are  xxx
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