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hi everyone i'm trevor and i'm 22 years old .
Living with Major Depression for 1 year 3months and i ddint even know until my cousin (who is a nurse and studies psychology ) saw my symptoms (attitude) and she asked questions that lead to where she told me i had depression nd i denied it (cause i didnt know ) and so i told her i wanna see a more qaulified doctor , so we went and he asked me more questions and finally he asked me if i have ever tried to end my life and i couldnt say no cause i almost did 2 times .
Finally on march 3rd 2016 i was diagnosed with Major Depression and Server anxiety , i couldnt belive that this was being told to me and i denied it at first but a few minutes later i realized how my life had changed alot for the last one year 3months and so i cried like its was raining cause i was too shocked and asked god why ? and so its been almost a whole month now ive been taking fluoxetin which is an antidepressant though it helps me get out more of my bed but i now cant feel anything anymore (emotionally numb) .
And the worst part is that i havent even told my parents yet and though we live togther i secretly take my pills .Now i feel like i have no future cause i cant imagine myself in one. I tried to watch as many sad movies as i can to make me cry i still cant and recentlly my uncle died and i felt nothing and i'm too afraid of losing myself more in any way ! Remebering simple task or even trying to attempt them is getting soooo hard .
Should i stop taking my pills ? Should i end my life ? i dont know what to do ........
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