depression and anxiety for months - leave the area?

my life for the last 4 months has been a living hell.   It all began  a few years ago when I met a beautiful charming lady who I fell for in a way I had never felt before,  She said I was her soul mate and made me feel so special, We moved in together within 2 months, married in 6 months and had a baby a few months later.  For both of us it was our second marriage.  I gave up my career to work with her full time on her business which we grew 10 fold,  But at the end of 2012 the relationship began to change.  A gradually intensifying cycle of emotional and at times physical abuse began and continued until the beginning of this year.  I think I realised a while back that I might have married a narcissist / sociopath but by the time I realised we were married wirh a baby and I was trapped.  It was too late and I just hoped thinngs would get better.  I should have seen the warning signs much earlier; self obessed, constantly craving attention, always buying new clothes and then the critiscism and attempts to isolate me from my family and friends.  I found out that she was having an affair with a client but was too scared to confront her,  When I finally confronted her about her behaviour at the beginning of this year she left me with our child.  She took out an injunction and threw me out of the business.  She filed for divorce.  The loss of contact with my child and isolation from work, together with her telling anyone who would listen that I was abusive and she was the victim threw me into a deep depression,  It started with insomnia but within 4 weeks I ended up in hospital for over a month being treated for depression and anxiety.  I left the clinic a few weeks ago but am getting no better. Because of her profession she is highly credible and believable, presenting herself as the victim.  We have no direct contact but whenever I face her in court I have a terror and an aftershock that feels like PTSD. I have an overwhelming urge to get through the divorce and move a long way from the area to avoid any contact with her.  But my agony is the impact this would have on my young child and our future relationship, as we would probably only see each other half the holidays.  Yet, I am no good to him if I am like this.  I am having counselling and medication but it just doesn't seem to be helping.  Has anyone had a similar experience? Any advice?

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