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Depression and suicide

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anonymous11904
anonymous11904

Hi guys, 

I chose not to expose my real name in this thread bcos’ I am scared.. I hope you understand. I guess the reason why I am in this online forum is bcos’ I have no one to talk to, I just literally lost everyone and I want to die. I am so empty and I have been a great disappointment to my parents and to myself. I lost my job and bcos’ of that, I lost the opportunity to help my family with our financial struggles and it made me even more depressed. 

I just wanted to help my parents, and I couldn’t even do it right. I am so useless.. if god’s real, I hope he takes my life first. I am almost at the verge of giving up. I am penniless, I am worthless and a disappointment to everyone around me

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  • Patient
    Patient anonymous11904

    Posted

    Hi anonymous11904

    We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.

    If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.

    Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.

    If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.

    Kindest regards

    Patient

  • Donna23316
    Donna23316 anonymous11904

    Posted

    Hey heartbreaker! I'm sorry for calling you that but anyone reading your post couldn't help feeling moved by it. I'm so sorry you feel the way you do. You're heaping an awful lot of responsibility on yourself. Maybe too much? I'm sorry you lost your job. You can't change what has happened but you can try and shape your future. At the moment, because you feel bad you are using what happened as a psychological weapon to continuously beat yourself over the head with. But think about, it comes back to the fact that you can't change what happend. It's done, it's finished, now how can you move forward. I sense you love your parents very much and I'm sure they love you unconditionally. Talk to them. Talk to someone. Keep communicating and please keep me posted, Donna xxx

  • deb87510
    deb87510 anonymous11904

    Posted

    Donna is right talk to your parents. It sounds like they are very important to you. Which do you think they would prefer... money from you or you in their lives?  I know what I would want from my children. Hugs to you. 
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