Depression anxity andpanick attack disorder
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Hey guys so since upping my dosage 6 weeks of citalopram 40mgs iviv been feeling great!! Doing better at work, able to get out of bed with hardly any anxiety, eating and sleeping better etc but I'm not gunna lie im really scared of having another relaps or laps I'm scared that if I was to be blamed for somthing or if I was really stressed about an issue it might send me off the rails again.. what I'm tryna say is unless I up my dosage of my medication I can't seem to fight my depression or anxiety off myself.. I feel like if everyone else who's going threw this can be strong why can't I! Yes I'm on the list of CBT therapy but I'm just really scared there's somthing else wrong with me like if I have bipoler 1 or 2 or BPD anyone else feel like this?
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chrissy69015 lauren2095
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Hi Laura, dont know how old you are, but im 47, in April i started to struggle with anxiety, and intrusive thoughts, ive suffered anxiety before after having children & so think it was partly hormonal again, due to perimenopause, i tried setraline, but it made me very ill for 5 weeks. i also started citalopram in June, aswell as cbt one on one. my dose has gone up to 40 mg now, as ocd thoughts tend to need a high dose, been on 40 mg for just over 3 weeks now. i have had some amazing times since starting the citalopram & many times felt back to normal, but the fear still rears its head sometimes & i get setbacks, this was probably the worse ive ever had snxiety & the memory is fresh. if i feel so much as a little bit edgy i can get back into it, im trying to put my cbt into action, as it always passes & i then cant remember how bad it is, hope this ramble makes sense x
lauren2095 chrissy69015
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Hey chrissy, thanks so much for your reply I'm 24 an I know going threw this ain't easy an I know I'm get my ups and downs it's just coming to terms with what I have is the hardest I feel like it has a good over me an I can't seem to control it an I think that's why with CBT it will help me learn so much about controlling any issues I have now an the future!! I try my best not to think this way but I'm so so scared of a next relaps that somthing so small can trigger me off I hate it! But I know I'm the only who can control my thoughts!! Xx how are you doing?
sue74917 lauren2095
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Lauren this a perfectly normal way to feel after we have been through a traumatic experience, cancer patients in remission and cardiac arrest survivors feel exactly the same and although,mostly, mental illness is not as life threatening as those, we still have to come to terms with it, It took me a good 3 months to trust the medication and although I still get adrenalin rushes and sometimes anxiety spikes, the meds kick in and they are gone as quickly as they came. You are as strong as anybody else, you realised you were ill and asked for help, that in its self takes strength, also when you start cbt they will teach you coping methods, you are doing well and in a few weeks time you will be even better
lauren2095
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Hey thank you so much for your support I know it will get easier it just takes time having been having my serve depression anxiety an panic attack disorder is the hardest thing to go threw an cope with it! Like I wanna fight this an stay really strong but I get so scared that when i next have a relapes can I cope with it like I done CBT before but silly me didn't practise the skills they gave me! So now doing it again I'l feel more fresher an know how to cope with it like iv been on antidepressants for over a year aswell which has helped me alot but I know it all takes time an practise!!