DEPRESSION.. FAKE ILLNES!!

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HI IM 23 AND HAVE BEEN SUFFERING IN SILENCE FOR ABOUT A YEAR WITH DEPRESSION.

I WAS SEXUALLY ATTACKED, HAVE HAS 4 KINDNEY OPPERATIONS IN THE LAST TWO YEARS, HAVE MOVED HOME THREE TIOMES AND LOST MY JOB THROUGH ILLNESS, I ALSO FEEL THAT PEOPLE LOOK DOWN ON ME ALOT SO I CAN KINDA SEE WHERE MY DEPRESSION HAS COME FROM, HOWEVER, I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN TO SCARED TO SEE A DOCTOR EVEN THOUGH I KNEW FULL WELL THAT I HAVE DEPRESSION BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS FELT THAT EVERYONE WOULD THINK I WAS FAKING IT. I JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT IF THERE IS ANYONE OUT THERE WHO IS SUFFERING DONT LET IT GET AS FAR AS I DID. (AFTER TAKING 42 PARACETAMOL AND COLLAPSING ON MY BATHROOM FLOOR UNTIL MY PARTNER FOUND ME AND GOT ME TREATED IN HOSP) IT IS A BIG STEP BACK WHEN YOU START DOING THESE THINGS TO YOURSELF BECAUSE ONCE YOU DO IT ONCE ITS SO EASY TO DO IT AGAIN (AND MY WRISTS BEAR THE MAJOR BRUNT). WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY IS THAT HELP NEEDS TO BE GOT IN EARLY STAGES... AS SOON AS YOU FEEL YOURSELF CHANGE GET HELP. (THINGS ARNET AS I THOUGHT THEY WOULD BE AND PEOPLE ARE ALOT MORE UNDERSTANDING).. THERE IS HELP THERE.

I AM NOW SEEING A PSYCHIATRIST AND AM ON AN NHS WAITING LIST FOR COUNSELLING

BUT EVEN THOUGH I HAVE SOME REAL BAD DAYS THE BATTLE HAS ONLY JUST BEGUN AND I CAN NOW WORK TOWARDS GETTING BETTER NOW. REMEMBER THIS IS AN ILLNESS LIKE ANY OTHER ILLNESS!!

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    [b:f783e36876]Hello Claire,

    Thanks for your warning and your cry for understanding. I think that you made a great step in overcoming your disease by writing about it.

    You are not alone. Look around on the internet and we are with a lot of people.

    You can follow my combat on http://deep-blackhole.blogspot.com

    For me is that the way, together with my therapist to attack the illness and find my mental balance back.

    I know the struggle is long and hard and you have to do it on your own.

    I wish you succes and please feel free to read and comment my story.

    Peerke

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    i can relate to you, i am currently dealing with facing up to a sexual assult that occured over 30 years ago. i was the only person that knew about this for 29 years and i have just finished counselling. after telling my husband this and that i had got us in a great deal of debt i have now been left with a depression. i find i cry everyday at everything, but i am hoping that sometime in the future this will stop.
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    I went to my GP when I stopped sleeping following a fortnight's imprisonment and abuse by my boyfriend. She referred me to the mental service that hangs out in a very dreary, gray house with a depressed atmosphere. The nurse who saw me never told me her name or what sort of relationship or treatment was to happen and was generally useless. She then said I should try homeopathic antidepressants. I said to her that I thought these were no better than homeopathic malaria pills. They only work by the placebo effect. I have tried very hard to get relief from various herbal medicines that I really did believe in but they didn't work. So pure cellulose and sugar pills unlikely to be the answer.

    What does work for me? Get in the car or on a bus and go into town. Just like that. Park/alight and keep walking, shopping without buying, go to library and read notices of upcoming events etc. Mingle with people and relate/talk to whoever. Pick up free reading matter. Stop before you are totally worn out and return home.

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    [b:f12fbedaae]Hi,

    You see every depression is different and the cure also. You must do what is closest to yourself. You did a very great step in recovering by writing down your problem.

    I really admire your honesty and you are also helping other people.

    For me that is a way to overcome my illness and it is a great feeling to be helpfull to someone else.

    I wish you al the wisdom to make the good choises.

    Take care

    Peerke[/b:f12fbedaae]

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