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dk25651
dk25651

Hi guys,

I've been on anti depressants for about three months now and although I've been feeling slightly better I still feel like everything is pointless. Existence is pointless. I really want to get through this and I am not suicidal but this thought scares me. Every time I begin to forget about it and enjoy myself for just a second this feeling just comes back.

Can someone tell me if they've ever felt like this. I feel like nobody really understands. And can someone please tell me if it will ever go away? I feel like it never will. I feel like I can't bear it anymore.

Thanks in advance x 

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  • ssk1
    ssk1 dk25651

    Posted

    Hi I've been on antidressants for about 2 months and like you feel like I'm just starting to enjoy myself and then the negative thoughts start to return. At the moment I seem to go from being on a high to a complete downward spiral where I just want to curl up in bed and cry. 

    I don't know if i will ever go away but I'm trying to stay positive and think that it will. I had a review of the medication with my doctor last week and he seemed to suggest that I stick on the current dose (I'm taking 150g Sertraline) as I had begun to move forward by having a couple of good days even though I'd say most days are still dark days. Therefore I'm trying to think that each time I feel happier that it is a small step forward. My doctor compared it to the tortoise and the hare and that it may seem like small steps but each small step is a step in the right direction and that by taking it slower the long term prognosis is good.

    • dk25651
      dk25651 ssk1

      Posted

      Hi, thanks for your reply. Yes I usually see it as a step in the right direction, it's almost as though I'm really trying to fight the depression but it keeps nuzzling its way back in, if that makes any sense. I also have a sort of bittersweet feeling that everything around me is great, but I just can't enjoy it, almost like I won't allow myself. 

      Interestingly I'm also on Sertraline, but 100, and i'm going to see if I can get a doctors apt soon to try and review it,

      Thanks again for your reply x

    • hypercat
      hypercat dk25651

      Posted

      Hi I started off on 100 mg of sertraline and it didn't help much.   It was increased to 150 mg and the difference was amazing.  A higher does might work as well for you.  x
    • ssk1
      ssk1 hypercat

      Posted

      I found this too - I started to notice an improvement in a few days. Just seen GP again and decided to continue with the 150mg
  • NameGene
    NameGene dk25651

    Posted

    I had chronic depression and had suicidal thoughts. I was on every antidepressant that was manufactured. None, I mean, none helped. It took quite awhile, but I brought myself out of it.  All I did was take an interest in something I used to enjoy, and slowly progressed forward.  I can say with confidence, yes, your depression will fade. I would rely on yourself for healing more so than medication.
  • pamellah73407
    pamellah73407 dk25651

    Posted

    Hi all, I had been depressed for much of my adult life until i got became a born again Christian, I recommend that you have look at Dr. Leaf on YouTube...she is a Psychiatrist and born again.

  • dk25651
    dk25651

    Posted

    Thanks everyone for taking the time to respond! I think I will be upping my dose, and also I'm really trying to challenge the negative thoughts that constantly pop into my head. Thanks again x
    • ssk1
      ssk1 dk25651

      Posted

      Are you having any CBT or counselling? I am not sure at the moment how much it is helping me as I've only done stage 1 and apparently need to move to the next stage after Christmas (although I have to put this on hold as I am having surgery for another problem in January). A lot of what I've discussed with the therapist so far does make a lot of sense though so I am helping it will help long term x

       

    • dk25651
      dk25651 ssk1

      Posted

      Yeah I am at the moment however I've only just started. I do quite like CBT as, like you, it does all seem to make sense and I can understand how it works, however at the moment I'm combatting my anxiety and worry with a worry diary and I've realised by doing this that my main issue really is depression as the way I'm feeling is my main source of worry, so this is something I'm going to discuss next time. x
    • hypercat
      hypercat dk25651

      Posted

      Hi for every negative thought try and think of a positive one.  It is hard at first but I have now been doing it for many years and it is second nature.  An example is 'I'm so lazy getting out of bed so late'  '  I then automatically think 'well done for getting up at all'.    See what I mean?  It works.  x
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