Depression is killing me, I am suicidal

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Well ive been depressed for almost more than 2 months and now i feel suicidal i always explain to my parents whats going on they just believe its a teenage strategy and ill get over it sooner or later ive even explained im depressed and they just add on saying no all the time. feels like from now i wanna just die and end all this pain ive lost alot of weight ive stopped doing the stuff i used to do like plah video games. I have no friends and im lonely when i do go to college. Im always on my own also i am that unsocial my social anxiety takes over me im scared and paranoid is there any way out of this pain I also get bullied at college but I cant really say anything because ive been told earlier before I started college you need to act mature like an adult by my parents. I hate my life and just wanna die suicides on my mind what do I.

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    Hello. You are reaching out. That's important. Talk to everyone you can until you understand life is worth living. Please ask whoever will listen and you will see it will be okay and there is help.

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    ginoa i believe you would benefit greatly by getting some help. you need to. start by seeing a doctor or someone who can advise you. get a diagnosis and then take it from there. you can't let your family stop you. when i began therapy, my family didn't believe my problem was depression. they STILL don't believe it. but i went ahead and got help anyway. i HAD to. it was difficult to do without their support. for 30 years i've been getting help, and they are still ashamed of me, even angry at me. i feel like an idiot around them. they treat me like i've ruined there lives. i'm not making this up, it's truly horrible.....but, i still go and get the help i need. i owe it to myself and so do you. don't let anyone stop you ever.

    truly, laura  x

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    I lost my daughter to mental illness.  I am appalled by your parents' lack of response to this and I wonder what would happen if you were to write down what you posted here and give it to them to read.  I don't understand why they are dismissing this situation and I wish I could help you!  I don't know what country you live in (I am in the USA) but I can tell you that every university and college in the USA has counselors.  I suggest you find out if your college has one and make an appointment ASAP.  If you are being bullied, this needs to be addressed by the administration!  These are not children in college and this behavior has to be stopped!  There's nothing to fear about reporting it and asking for help!  I don't know what the health care system is like in the UK (maybe that's where you live) but if you have a family Dr. call and make an appoinmtent and tell him/her what you posted here!  TELL SOMEONE WHO CAN HELP YOU.  Is there a suicide hotline in the UK or your country?  Look it up online and call it.  Your situation sounds so much like how my daughter started and she got tons of help and had ME!  DON'T ACT ON YOUR THOUGHTS of suicide, help is available, there are medications that can assist you!  DON'T GIVE UP! 

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    I agree with all the other comments. U have made the biggest step admitting to urself theres something wrong & reaching out for help. Maybe we cant please our families and well thats tough because we aren't in the medieval times depression and all other mental illness is as real as lung disease, diabetes, god it makes me so angry....my daughter is my world if i ever thought she was depressed or suicidal my heart would b broken id do everything to help her. Xx u cant give up bcos ppl dont understand. I have suffered on and off for yrs but have had great times inbetween that id never of had if id gone thru with suicide. Seek help asap. From a dr or the hospital ok, ur worth it x good luck, amanda xx

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    Hi ginoa. I wrote to u on here a few days ago. Just wondered how ur doing xx :0)
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    Your saying you want to commit suicide means you really want help, someone to talk to, someone who will listen to you and understand... Its good you are 'reaching out.'

    Since you are of college age, hopefully you are at least 18... So visit with your dr and tell him/her its in confidence... hopefully you will have a therapist recommended to you...ask your dr for advice as to how to go about this...

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