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I met someone over a year ago. We started seeing each other and fell in love. We were planning marriage. His mother wouldn't agree as per the asian cultural norm, she wanted him to marry within the family. He also had other family issues going on. He left his job in order to put pressure on his mother to agree to the marriage. But the marriage discussion fell behind due to his other family issues. As time went by he became very distant from me. He would ignore my calls and not respond to my txt messages. I had to keep persisting in order to get him to reciprocate. During this period of time, he was unemployed and I thought it could be due to that reason that he is behaving so coldly towards me. He was very passionate about work and a very ambitious minded person. We would still see each other and spend time together, after much persuasion. One day, I told him it seems that he may be depressed. He was telling me how he just did not feeling like being around people, he felt constantly tired. When he went to see his GP, he was diagnosed with depression. He took medication for just over a month (his medication was changed twice). He also attended two therapy sessions. He then discontinued his medication and did not attend any further sessions. He said he felt no different, infact he just felt alot more irritable and aggressive. He has not taken any treatment since then. This was in November 2014.
He managed to find a job and started his employment in January 2015. He still continues to ignore me. It takes several days to get him to respond to me. He keeps saying he doesn't feel like talking and that he doesnt even talk to his friends. He shows no affection towards me like he used to. He does not seem bothered about his outlook and still continues not to keep in touch with friends. The only person I think he still cares about is his mother who lives with him. But if he was truly depressed, would he care about her? I asked him that question and he said if he cared that much he would have agreed to what she wants (that is to get married). He says she is his responsbility and her well being matters to him. But he can not fulfill her wish. He now told me he just does not want to get married or have a family. He doesn't want to be with anybody. He says, he goes to work and comes home. Thats how his day goes by. He just wants his day to pass. He told me he doesnt feel anything inside of him. His work involves no emotions so he is able to manage that. He says he hates emotions and emotional people. He says he knows he has become abnoxious and he doesn't know why.
My problem is that I still love him dearly and I want a future with him. I dont want to let him go. But I really dont know what to do. I feel if he was genuinely depressed, then he wouldnt even go to work.
Any suggestions/feedback will be much appreciated
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