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depression ruining my life

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cornflakes
cornflakes

Hi all,

I've had depression since I was 14 (I'm 21 now) and gone through a variety of doctors, psychiatrists and counsellors.

I just feel like this will never end. I can't remember the last time I felt like a 'normal' person. As well as low feelings there are times when I am happy and sometimes cannot remember what I've done (the forgetting is becoming more frequent). Sometimes i feel like there's a crowd in my head reciting over and over what i am doing. Its so stressful and my anxiety levels are through the roof to the point i dont want to leave the house anymore in fear of breaking down or even killing somone

I go to Uni and all these feelings have made me fail and had to retake a year. My energy is so so low all the time. Struggle to go to work also with most weeks ending up not going.

I was ssexually abused when I was 7 so I am currently going through the process of it going or not going to court. Its been such a long wait since i first reported it. (Will be a year in March).

I have recently been put on to sertraline so hoping these will be better.

Is there a way out or are people like me just always going to suffer?

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  • ema65741
    ema65741 cornflakes

    Posted

    you are definitely not going to suffer always. find activities you like, do things that fulfill you. my story is similar to yours so i know how you feel
  • ema65741
    ema65741 cornflakes

    Posted

     there are so many good things in life so don't let the bad ones define you.
  • leah89345
    leah89345 cornflakes

    Posted

    Hi Cornflakes,

    I'm sure you won't always suffer! You've got a lot going on at the moment and you can't fix everything at once, that was the first thing I had to accept to fight my depression.

    Once your tablets are kicking in you'll feel better and going to work/uni will be easier. But remember health comes first so try not to worry about those other things, concentrate on yourself and getting yourself better

    This forum has really helped me so far, remember you're not alone and there's so many people on here willing to listen and help :-)

    I hope you start to feel better soon :-)

    • cornflakes
      cornflakes leah89345

      Posted

      Thanks so much. That really helped. I worry so much about what uni/work will say when I havent really stopped to ask myself if I'm ok. thank you! Xx
  • julie74890
    julie74890 cornflakes

    Posted

    Hello I no how you feel I have been like this for about 8years now I will be 41 this year I have seen dr and that and nothing seems to get any better I have good days and very low days I feel low most of the time
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