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Hi, hopefully somebody can help me out with my symptoms.
Since I was about 11 years old, I started to get these weird 'attacks' of derealization where I would suddenly feel like I've fallen into a dream, except I've dreamed the same dream very many times. It's like very intense deja vu. At the same time, I will feel like nothing is familiar to me and as though I'm seeing everything for the first time. I think the name of this is 'jamais vu' or 'derealization' (according to google). Also I get a feeling right at the top of my stomach like butterflies ascending upwards (I'm sorry if it makes no sense but it's almost impossible to describe what it feels like). All of this lasts about 60-90 seconds and then it just stops and everything is back to normal. It doesn't occur very often, usually around once a month or sometimes more/less often. There is no pattern of occurance, it's completely random and usually gets me when I'm least expecting.
I used to find it a bit odd but not particularly unpleasant, but now I've come to really hate it since I had one at school and I think a lot of people noticed. I was reading from a textbook when it suddenly hit me and according to other people, they said that I abruptly stopped reading and I dropped the book on the floor and when people asked me if I was alright I didn't respond to them. I definitely was not aware that I had dropped the book and I don't remember hearing people talk to me. I would really like to get this issue fixed and stopped because I'm extremely concerned it will happen again at an awkward time/place. I read that what I am experiencing may be called derealization. Is this true? Could this be a panic attack? Although I am very shy and introverted, I have never experiened anxiety or panic disorder symptoms, plus I was a very happy kid when this all started so I don't know what could be wrong. I do however have a history of depression which was brought on by an incident 6 months ago that I haven't been able to cope with. I don't know if depression has a lot to do with this because as I said, it started at such a young age. Somebody please help me, I feel like this is ruining my life and I don't want to live constantly dreading the next one.
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